July 18th, 2013.
It's been 8 years now. I've missed you. You have long gone but I can still remember you clearly in my mind. Your face, your moves, your smile, your funny face expression. You left us too early. I'm sorry I said this again and again but it's true. I bet you knew it too. :'(
Anyway, today our best friend has delivered a baby girl. They haven't give the baby girl name yet. I wanted to tell our best friend to name the baby girl Michelle, in remembrance of you, but I don't want to remind her about you because I don't want her to be sad. You left us on the same date as her baby girl was born. I believe if I remind her of you, she will feel sad each time it's time to celebrate her baby girl's birthday. We've missed you. A lot. :'(
One thing for sure, you are lucky. God loves you so much, didn't he? Took you from us in such a young age. Hey, six years have changed me and my life. I suffered a lot and sometimes I just want my life to be over. Kept waiting for the call from God. And the part that hurts me the most is that when I feel down and sad, I no longer have a place to go like we used to have. Remember when we felt down? We used to sneak out of the house and went to that hill? We'll tell each other our problems and then start throwing rocks down the hill as far as possible as the rock symbolizes our problems. After that we'll just laughed at each other and forget all those problems that we had. I missed those times. There is a lot of people around me, no doubt about that, but I still feel alone. Lonely. Wish you were here. :'(
One thing for sure, I'll always remember you. WE will always remember you. Rest in peace, B.. :'(
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Double the Anger!
Life's such a bitch sometimes. One time you'll feel like at the top of the world and the next day everything will just turn upside down before you knew it. I guess that's just life. Sometimes you're up there and sometimes you're just buried deep in a pile of shit.
So after winning competition by competition, hosting successful events and programs, it finally hits me that it is others' turn now to get blessed. I mean, I can't ask God to bless only me and myself alone right? That's selfish. So I accepted it with an open heart. :)
Anyway, today got into an argument with a few people and to my surprise, one of them is Mr Boyfie. We never really argued much so it was surprising, and shocking, and everything. It was a really small matter, really, if you ask me. But you know, as someone who is concern about him, I don't like it when I became the last person to know anything and everything about him. His favorite sentence of, 'haven't I told you that..' or 'didn't I tell you that..' or even 'oh, I thought I've told you that..' is extremely a pain in the ass. It is as if telling me that Mr Boyfie told a lot of things to other people, and he thought he told me too but apparently he didn't, which means I'm the last person to know the things that are happening in his life. So where does that put me in his life then? That's one thing. Another thing was that he didn't even bother to contact me after that! Bollocks! We should stop here before my anger gets out of control. :)
So lately, there's been a hot video shared around the social networking. About this young Malay girl who confesses her love to this young boy, that they have been in a relationship for a week, that she promised to love him and only him, that they will be together forever and ever and ever, and all those sweet words that one can ever imagined. For me, that's a very sweet thing to see. I mean in today's world, how rare it is to see one loves another so purely and deeply and truly and sweetly and everything. Even though they had just been together for a week but at least they had a sweet moment together. She did feel that true love deep inside her heart. Some people haven't even felt that way before. Have you?
Too bad, our people will always find faults in others. I don't want to be racist but most of the people who actually condemned that girl are of her own race. Sad, isn't it? They were condemning her as if she has done the worst sin ever. As if she has murdered somebody. Seriously, if the girl is not strong enough (like me), she might try to commit suicide by now. Thank God she is strong. And to be frank, I do pray for her so that she will stay strong and let Jesus stays by her side, protect her and lead her way. She's still young. She needs support. She doesn't need those haters who keep finding faults in God's creation. As adults, we have to guide the youngsters. Even if you don't want to, you still don't have to condemn her. If you don't like the video, you shouldn't even have watched it in the first place! There's no need to leave such demoralizing comments!
Okay, getting angrier now. Ahahaha I should stop. Nighty nite peeps.. ^^
So after winning competition by competition, hosting successful events and programs, it finally hits me that it is others' turn now to get blessed. I mean, I can't ask God to bless only me and myself alone right? That's selfish. So I accepted it with an open heart. :)
Anyway, today got into an argument with a few people and to my surprise, one of them is Mr Boyfie. We never really argued much so it was surprising, and shocking, and everything. It was a really small matter, really, if you ask me. But you know, as someone who is concern about him, I don't like it when I became the last person to know anything and everything about him. His favorite sentence of, 'haven't I told you that..' or 'didn't I tell you that..' or even 'oh, I thought I've told you that..' is extremely a pain in the ass. It is as if telling me that Mr Boyfie told a lot of things to other people, and he thought he told me too but apparently he didn't, which means I'm the last person to know the things that are happening in his life. So where does that put me in his life then? That's one thing. Another thing was that he didn't even bother to contact me after that! Bollocks! We should stop here before my anger gets out of control. :)
So lately, there's been a hot video shared around the social networking. About this young Malay girl who confesses her love to this young boy, that they have been in a relationship for a week, that she promised to love him and only him, that they will be together forever and ever and ever, and all those sweet words that one can ever imagined. For me, that's a very sweet thing to see. I mean in today's world, how rare it is to see one loves another so purely and deeply and truly and sweetly and everything. Even though they had just been together for a week but at least they had a sweet moment together. She did feel that true love deep inside her heart. Some people haven't even felt that way before. Have you?
Too bad, our people will always find faults in others. I don't want to be racist but most of the people who actually condemned that girl are of her own race. Sad, isn't it? They were condemning her as if she has done the worst sin ever. As if she has murdered somebody. Seriously, if the girl is not strong enough (like me), she might try to commit suicide by now. Thank God she is strong. And to be frank, I do pray for her so that she will stay strong and let Jesus stays by her side, protect her and lead her way. She's still young. She needs support. She doesn't need those haters who keep finding faults in God's creation. As adults, we have to guide the youngsters. Even if you don't want to, you still don't have to condemn her. If you don't like the video, you shouldn't even have watched it in the first place! There's no need to leave such demoralizing comments!
Okay, getting angrier now. Ahahaha I should stop. Nighty nite peeps.. ^^
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