I miss you.

The person whom I'm referring to is a secret since by just saying out the name, it will give a heart attack to those who know me. Why? Because that person? Missing that person? Seriously? Well yeah, no joke. I miss you, sweetheart. ^^

I don't know why but I remembered those days when we were so close together, talked about stuffs, made fun of each other, lepak together, I miss those times, you know. Sometimes I wish I have the guts to ask you, "hey, what's wrong? Why are we being so far apart now? As if I'm someone new to you.." Too bad, I can't. I just can't. I guess my pride is holding me back real tight.

Then the moments where things got awkward between us popped up after those sweet experiences. Frankly speaking, my heart burns each time I think about it. Each time I see you I really feel like talking to you, making fun of you like I always did. Oh, shit! What happened??

I watched the video today, and I saw the last part where I told you I'll always be there for you, supporting you, whether you need me or not, whether you WANT me or not, do you remember that? When I saw that, I almost cried. Why? Because I know I failed to do so.You pushed me away and I left, as simple as that. At least I should try to understand you and be there for you like what I've promised but I didn't. I turned away. I'm really sorry..

I really wish you will read this because there will be no way for me to go to you and say out these words I've been longing to tell, but I know it is almost impossible for you to even check about how am I doing as your pride is even greater than mine. Anyway, at least I tried..

Missing you sweetheart.