Conflict

Okay, so this is one of the topic that we learnt in Social Study subject. One of the subtopic is on how to resolve our conflict. Surprisingly, one of the way is avoidance - to avoid our own conflict. Like let's say, you have a conflict with someone, and both of you avoid from talking about the conflict that both of you are having. So each time the both of you meet, you will talk about everything except for the conflict's matter. Funny, don't you think? How do you expect to solve the conflict by avoiding it?

Since I am the type of people that will raise up my opinion when I am disagree on something, so I stood up for my opinion today. I asked my lecturer, "I'm sorry sir, but I'm afraid I can't really agree with that statement. Avoiding your own conflict just doesn't seem right." So, he told me that sometimes we just can't solve things or make them right again. Let bygone be bygone. He said, "yang dah tu, dah la." But how to let it go if you avoid it?

I have this conflict with someone, let's call that someone A, where A tried the best to avoid me. I tried to do the same but personally, it affected me. I'm not a simple person who forgets everything just like that without discussing it. So I took my own initiative by finding A and talked. We discussed and everything went well. A said that by avoiding me, A thought everything will go smoothly. Well, maybe for A, but not for me. I need to make everything clear before I start a new chapter.

Sometimes, ways to solve conflicts are just not the same for everybody. :)

Friendship or love?

I am not gonna talk about who should you pick - whether your friends or your loved ones. That topic has been discussed by almost everyone. The real question is actually: can you differentiate between friendship and love? I tell you, that question looks simple but you can never really have the answer for it. Unbelievable? Believe it.

That's why word like scandal exists. You said you are friends, yet you are having some kind of feeling -- which you can't describe -- towards him or her. I'm not admitting something here, but I knew people that have this kind of feeling and I just don't know what to tell them when they ask me about my opinion. When they ask me, "Lala, do you think I've fallen for my bestfriend?" or "Lala, I think my friend is into me, what should I do?" or "Lala, what if me and my bestfriend got together and things turned out to be not that well, which lead to friendship destruction?"

What am I supposed to answer when I can't even differentiate between love and friendship?

Truth be told, there is a thin line that differentiate friendship from love. You might misunderstand your friendship as love or your love as friendship. You thought you are in love when you start to concern about someone when actually its just a friend who is concern about his or her friend. You thought that he or she is your bestfriend when in fact you are in love with him or her. Getting complicated, isn't it? Told you so. I once thought that 'he' is my bestfriend, that I love him as a friend. Too late to realize, after he's gone, I know I'm in love with him. Well, I can hear a sound of regret in that sentence myself. Ahahaha

Another story is that, I thought I was in love, but I was wrong. Taking last experience as a lesson, I took a step forward but then realized that he was not the one for me. The past is deep. :)

So YOU tell me: what is love, what is friendship?

Lesson.

I learnt quite a lesson today. :)

Let me tell you from the beginning. After the performance (Malam Gema Budaya), my hair was badly damaged and I look like a mad woman. Seriously. So I was thinking of going to salon the next day which is Saturday. Due to extreme tiredness, I couldn't get off my bed until the evening so it was quite late already to go to salon. So I planned to go on Sunday. Which means, I won't be able to go to church and I picked to go to SALON instead of going to CHURCH. (I know how stupid it sounded)

But then, an angel call Dominic (our Christian Fellowship's President) suddenly passed by me that Saturday night. Our conversation began:

Dom: G church esok c? (Are you going to church tomorrow?)

Me: em..... g..... knk? (I'm going. Why?)

Dom: C, ada sorg budak junior L ya mok join. Ny anglikan juak. Ktk ngan jeremy jak anglikan so ktk la mbk ny esok. (Nothing, there's a junior from L unit want to come with you. He's Anglican so since you and Jeremy are the only students from Anglican, you guys should bring him along tomorrow.)

Me: Ok, c hal. Lak mek cntact ny. (Okay, sure. I'll contact him later.)

So I changed my plan -- from going to Salon, to going to church -- with a super-damn-heavy heart. It's like I'm going to church just because I have to. It was Sunday. And amazingly the Father of the church talked about something which really hit me.

"As human, we always forget Him. We put our wants first rather than our need -- which is our God. Some people even went to church for only three times in their whole life -- when they HATCHED (after they were born-baptized), when they were MATCHED (they got married), and when they DISPATCHED (they were dead)."

I was speechless. Thank God, He sent me an angel to bring me back to Him. I am so sorry, Lord Jesus. :(

Malam Gema Budaya

Last week my time was occupied with my family. This week I was busy with dance performance for Malam Gema Budaya. I was in the Sarawakian dance performance and 1 Malaysia too. I wore Iban costume. :)

My great friend - Bernadette and I :)

Me and my nice friend - Yuan

Me and my trainer - Donald

We rock that night! Ahahaha

Lot of pictures taken by my friends so I don't have the copies yet. Guess they are busy uploading it on Facebook. Anyway, Donald did a great job! :)

Trip with My Family!

It's been long since I updated my blog. I've been busy with some performances and also with my family trip! It was great. They came here last week; my dad, my mom, my sister and her husband, and they brought along my son. :)

They were here for about a week and I managed to spend about 4-5 days with them. We went around KL, Malacca, and Pahang. I enjoyed it much. Took a lot of pictures but only managed to let you see some because most pictures were taken using my sister's camera.

My dad and I :)

This picture was taken on the first day I came down to KL. The first question my dad asked when he first saw me was, "wanna have a drink tonight?". Haha

Don't misunderstand, my family takes alcoholic drinks when we are happy, celebrating something or in some special events. Me and my dad sometimes drink beer and talk about stuffs, discuss things, taking it in a very matured way, I would say. We'll just drink and talk as adults.

Me and my son

Look how happy he is. Wish I can keep that smile as it makes my day. :)

People says that he really has the Chinese-looks. Must be from his grandfather. Haha

Except for his eyelashes, it's long like mine. It is weird if you look closely to his eyes since he has that Chinese eyes but with long eyelashes. Ahahaha

Again with my dad :)

We don't look like father and daughter, do we? Ahahaha

Not even close. We look very different. I wonder, am I adopted? Ahahaha kidding.

Me and some friends

My dad, my mom, and my sis

Me, my dad and my mom

Missing them already!! :D