April 13th

April 13th is my birthday. Not a good date people usually told me. And I have to admit that I actually believed it as well because a lot of terrible things will happen either on my birthday or the day before. I have lived with that kind of thinking for years now and never bother to think or even plan anything on my birthday because I know bad things will happen anyway.

However, this year I don't know what triggers me but I actually planned something. I want to have at least once a birthday celebration for myself. A good one. So I planned. And to be frank, I was really looking forward for my coming birthday. I took a risk. Unfortunately, as expected, things didn't go well. All the things I planned seems went way off board. Everything was fucked up. And another confession from me? Yes, I gave up.

But thinking of it again, I was like no. Not this time. Not this birthday. Not now. I'm not going to let my life controls me. I should be in control of my life. I'm gonna celebrate my birthday even if I were to celebrate it all by myself. I'm not going to just sit down and accept this so-called-fate. No, I'm not gonna to do that. I have enough celebrating Christmas by myself, New Year by myself, doing nothing but crying. No, I'm so not gonna do that. I'll not let a single tear fall off my cheek this time. I'm stronger now, aren't I? I'm not that little girl anymore that cried each time other people bully me. This time I'll stand up straight and tell those people to just fuck off. I have been living independently now and I don't see any reason why I should regret for deciding it that way. Condemn me as you like, disappoint me, leave me, whatever you like, do it. I dare you. I DOUBLE DARE YOU, MOTHERFUCKERS.

P/s: This post is written due to the stress and problems I'm having right now. Please do not be offended. I'm just writing this to let my feelings out in a healthy way. At least I don't go for suicide anymore, right? Ahahaha good day, mates! ^^

Do you want to sleep over?

Okay, please don't misunderstand that title. Ahahaha

That's just a question I'd really want to ask to my friends. Surprised? I know right. I've been living for what, 20 years, and I've never have any experience of having my besties staying over at my place doing nothing, or just everything. You know like watch movies, play games, chit-chatting, anything. Like those things the girls usually do in movies. I wanna do that. It looks fun, doesn't it?

When I was a very young little girl, I always wanted my friends to sleep over. Too bad, their parents never let them to. I asked my parents once why wouldn't my friends' parents let them stay over? And the answer I got was maybe they are afraid that their kids will behave inappropriately or cause any trouble and so on. Well, when I looked back, maybe there are two or three times my friends did stay over but that was because  of they were having a bad time with their family. It made the stay-over a bit sad as we would talk about their problems. To do something fun makes us somewhat guilty. That was the only experience I've ever had when I was in primary school.

Then in secondary school, despite of having my apartment all by myself, I'd never have the thought of bringing my friends home. I guess it was because back in that time, most or I suppose all of my friends are rich. Like REALLY rich. So taking them to my small apartment with nothing inside is like, yeah right.. So I never did.

Now, becoming a young adult, suddenly the urge of asking my friends to sleep over came back. I don't know why. I guess I just need friends to socialize. I have seven sisters and five of them are married, leaving me and my younger sister alone. We used to spend our nights talking, gossiping, insulting *of course in a good way*, mocking, all those stuffs. And after they got married, all those stuffs are being taken away slowly. It makes me sad, and lonely, and... I don't know, depressed? Sigh. I missed those times....

Everlasting Friendship

Looking through my pieces of work about 2 years ago, I stumbled on an essay which has made me smile. And I am very excited to show it to you guys!It is about 'Everlasting Friendship'. Have fun reading! :)

     Generally, based on the Macmillan English Dictionary (2007, pg 504), everlasting is 
 defined as something that will continue to exist forever meanwhile friendship means a relationship between people who are friends or the feeling of being friends with others. So basically, everlasting friendship means a relationship between people that lasts for a lifetime. But for sure, every each of us will have our own different perception of the word ‘everlasting friendship’. As quoted by Farah Syuhana, the most relaxed person in our small circle of friends, everlasting friendship means something that is built with trust, love and care throughout the whole friendship process. Meanwhile, Bernadette, the most timid person, said that “it is when someone is willing to spend their free time for you and willing to listen to every useless thing you rant about”. It is funny to know that a single word – ‘everlasting friendship’, could be defined in million ways possible.

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Farewell Dinner II

That night was awesome. Had a lot of fun!! ^^

From ur left; Jared, Jeremy, Walker

From ur left; Eugene, Dom, Papz

Our Church Members - Rockzszz!!!

Church Members - Rockzzssz!!

In the middle, Bro Anthony!!!

See how awesome are our uncle and aunties!

Sweet aunties!!

Before

After! Ahahahaha

Papz mimicking the 'cute pose' Ahahahaha

Potong kek jom!!!!

The hotties!

Our sempoi IPG's friends!

Leo and I

Farewell Dinner I

Our Brother Anthony from our church is leaving to UK for study next week so the members form our church decided to do farewell dinner for him. I felt quite sad since he helped us a lot here but I'm still happy for him. It's gonna be empty once he left but the memories will stay with us now and always. Thanks bro. ^^

So my friends and I went to Ipoh Parade to get something for him. And here are some pictures taken;

Getting something for him or for ourselves??

Do I have what it takes to be IPG's Next Top Model??Haha

There are some other pics... Too bad it's in Joseph's camera. Sigh... Never mind, a lot more pics coming for the real dinner!!

29 days Fitness Program!

This program - "29 days Fitness Program" is actually a program where a group of people gather and exercise(aerobic) together for about an hour starting from 6pm to 7pm. It has no fixed leader, which means every participants will be given a chance to lead in front, with their own routine so that there will be no same routines and thus will make exercising more fun every day!

The idea of this program was started from a small talk between my friend, Bernadette Hyacinth Vincent and myself, Lydrielyn Koh, a few days ago. We want to have a healthy lifestyle, stay fit, and if possible to reduce some weight too! That is why we are sharing this program with everyone - especially those who are in IPG Kampus Ipoh, trying our best to make our friends here to stay healthy. Like what Syed Abdullah (Exco Sukan, 2012) said, "we don't want fat teachers, nor obese teachers. We want healthy teachers".

This program has been launched today and will be going on until February 29th. It will officially start in February actually but we are now trying to get more and more people to join us. So, why don't you help us spread the news? :)

As a start, we now have 3 participants - me, Bernadette and Eugene Wong Chen Wei. That is why we want you to join us. It is never too late. The more, the merrier! Let's get into action!!!!

Come on and join us everybody! Health is wealth!

July.

10 Reasons to Hate July:

1. My family came this month to pay me a visit. We had fun in Malacca. I extended my holiday so that I can join them to Genting Highlands, but it turned out that the tickets were all sold out. Since they bought the ticket earlier, they went. I was left alone.

2. We performed for Malam Gema Budaya. Everything went smoothly until the time for us to perform. I don't know what the hell was wrong with the technician but the music started earlier, we got panic and the steps were all over the places.

3. My lecturer asked me to handle a performance for a retirement event. I was so busy with few other performances and just don't have the time to handle it. I know I should've said 'No' to my lecturer but don't you know that the word 'NO' is the hardest thing to say? The performance was fine said them but being me, I know there's just something missing in it. Sorry guys, my bad. :(

4. I was helping out my other lecturer for a booth on our English carnival. I tried my very best to make it okay but it just won't do. I spent about a day to at least make it something unforgettable, something awesome, something PERFECT. But I just couldn't. It turned out  to be something simple and ordinary. Again, sorry everyone. T.T

5. I have a lot to pay this month and in just a blink of an eye, I was broke. Trainee teachers' camp, LCD projector, trip to Teluk Senangin, my toiletries, license, hockey stick, class fund, institute's Batik, etc..... OMG, I wonder how am I going to live after this with only few ringgit left in my wallet. =.="

6. I borrowed my bestie's camera the other day when I went out with my family. After that, kept it in my locker. Recently, we went to Teluk Senangin and I found the camera was missing. My goodness!!!!!! How I hate JULY!!!!! Sorry, Dette... I'll replace it as soon as possible....

7. Trip to Teluk Senangin was a disaster. Well of course we had fun but other than that, stayed in a stupid motel called KAMILA, met that motel's arrogant owner, ate at a restaurant full with flies. Shit. We're totally fucked up.

8. Because of two laptops were missing in the hostel, all the girls were gathered and scolded by the 'prefect'. They were shouting and yelling as if we all did it. As if we couldn't hear them. As if we are 6-year-old kids. As if the person who stole it will stood up and said 'yeah, I did it'. As if we couldn't understand them. Of course not all of the prefects did so but one of them (I don't know his name) acted too much. If  I were the one who stole that laptops, I wouldn't keep it that long. I'll straight away sell it the day I stole it. What's the point of doing spot-check when the laptops had been stolen for like few days ago? Of course I am sorry for the two girls who lost their laptops but the prefects' action was too late. Should have done it earlier.

9. My classmates got into a fight. It's a small matter at first but they didn't solve it properly so it turned out to be a big matter. Well, shouldn't make a mountain out of a molehill right? I cried. We are all so close together. Why can this happened?..

10. My bestie's bought a phone online worth quite a price and the stupid guy who 'sell' it didn't post it to her. So people, never buy things from mudah.com.my. Don't trust them. Never. Poor on Dette. I'll try to get my lawyer's advice on this okay? We can't just let him go.

 To that stupid fellow: watch out. You'll be dead soon. Every parts of your body will be cut off. Separated into 10 parts. While cutting it into 10 different parts, I'll make sure you are still in your sense. To feel how much does it hurts each time you lie to others. I don't know how many times you have been doing this but trust me, you'll regret it. Your eye balls will be scooped out and your tongue will be cut slowly. Your penis will be burnt. After that, I'll let you live. How are you  going to live next? Up to you, you moron.

Trip with My Classmates!

Last week was 'awesome'. My class (K11) together with another TESL class (K10) went to Teluk Senangin for a trip. It was supposedly be a trip where all of us should relax and have a good time with each other, spend more time to know each other better, especially with our tutor. It turned out to be a disaster. An awesome disaster. Ahahahaha

Here's the plan:

We are goin' there, stay in a motel, have barbeque, reflection session with our tutor and just have fun. Enjoy.

Then it turned out to be this way:

We went there, found out that we had to stay in a dorm (which is not as private as in motel), that dorm was terrible -- the beds were full with dust and the room itself was fuckin' dusty, no shower room so everybody bathed in the toilet, short circuit each time you on the fan, no water the next morning -- , the place where we ate was full with flies -- the flies population are thousands times more than the people who stayed in Teluk Senangin -- , in conclusion : we fucked.

My advice: Never stay at KAMILA MOTEL. They are rude. Their excuse for treating us that way is : "you pay so little and yet you expect us to treat you like in a 5-star hotel". Eh, hello! First of all, we didn't ask you much. We ask the technician to come and repair the circuit because how do you expect your customer to sleep without fan? We ask you to add more food because we paid for 53 people but you gave some of our food to the politician who happened to be there that weekend? We ask you to fix the water tap because there was no water! Is that what you call a 5-star hotel request? I would say that was just the MOST BASIC THING A CUSTOMER WOULD ASK.

But I wouldn't blame that not-so-clever motel. There's another story behind it involving some things that just can't be mentioned. :)

So whoever wants to go to Teluk Senangin, better not to. I would never ever come there ever again. Such a waste of my time. Even if you want to go, don't NEVER stay at KAMILA MOTEL.

But then, our objectives; to be closer to each other and to restart any bad things between us were achieved. So it's okay. At least we had a good time and enjoyed our fun activities (playing on the beach) much. :)

Now I am thinking of goin' to Mt. Kinabalu. I've climbed once when I was in Form2 but took no picture. Only a certificate to certified that I've been on the peak. So, me and some classmates are planning to save money every month till we reach our budget - RM1000 per person. Oh yeah! :)

Friendship or love?

I am not gonna talk about who should you pick - whether your friends or your loved ones. That topic has been discussed by almost everyone. The real question is actually: can you differentiate between friendship and love? I tell you, that question looks simple but you can never really have the answer for it. Unbelievable? Believe it.

That's why word like scandal exists. You said you are friends, yet you are having some kind of feeling -- which you can't describe -- towards him or her. I'm not admitting something here, but I knew people that have this kind of feeling and I just don't know what to tell them when they ask me about my opinion. When they ask me, "Lala, do you think I've fallen for my bestfriend?" or "Lala, I think my friend is into me, what should I do?" or "Lala, what if me and my bestfriend got together and things turned out to be not that well, which lead to friendship destruction?"

What am I supposed to answer when I can't even differentiate between love and friendship?

Truth be told, there is a thin line that differentiate friendship from love. You might misunderstand your friendship as love or your love as friendship. You thought you are in love when you start to concern about someone when actually its just a friend who is concern about his or her friend. You thought that he or she is your bestfriend when in fact you are in love with him or her. Getting complicated, isn't it? Told you so. I once thought that 'he' is my bestfriend, that I love him as a friend. Too late to realize, after he's gone, I know I'm in love with him. Well, I can hear a sound of regret in that sentence myself. Ahahaha

Another story is that, I thought I was in love, but I was wrong. Taking last experience as a lesson, I took a step forward but then realized that he was not the one for me. The past is deep. :)

So YOU tell me: what is love, what is friendship?

Love Triangle

Ahahaha gotcha!

Actually there's nothing really related to what I am about to say with the title I posted. I just wanna make the post looks 'momofurged'.

Ahahahaha

In case you are wondering what does 'momofurged' mean, it's just a word to express a feeling you just can't describe. You can use it in situations like you want to praise someone very highly or maybe in a terrible situation where you just need to use harsh words such as 'fuckin  shit', 'holy cow' or etc. Don't check this word in your dictionary cause you won't find it. Never ever. Why? Cause a good friend of mine created it. Ahahhaha credit to Eugene Wong Chen Wei!! ^^

Okay, let me go to my 'love triangle story'. Hoho

As what I mentioned earlier, it's nothing really about it. Here it is: I have two good friends of mine; Bernadette Hyacinth Vincent and Eugene Wong Chen Wei. We  are very close. I don't know whether they love me but I do love them. :)

They are very good. In fact, amazingly great. Wanna know them? Check on their Facebook. They use their real name in Facebook so it's pretty easy to find them. Bernadette, she's amazing. She's pretty, talented, she has got all the criteria you ever think as a perfect woman. No joke. She doesn't talk much like I do. That's why we make pretty good relationship, I guess. Ahahaha so most of the time it's me who 'nag'. I still remember the birthday card she gave to me. She wrote only a lil' inside but it touched my heart. Thanks, Dette. :)

Me and Dette :)

Next, Eugene Wong Chen Wei. We argue a lot. Always have different opinions and ideas. But at last, we'll still make it. Lecturers always have to ask us to relax when we were having discussion. Ahahaha

Just for your information, the main reason we fight and all is because of me. It's me, not him. Hate to admit that. But I just don't know why I like to find something against him. Maybe that's what make our relationship hot and spicy! ^^

Me and Eugene

The funny thing about us is people always mistake the three of us. Some people thought that Dette and him are in relationship, some people thought that me and Eugene are in relationship, they even thought me and Dette are in relationship! Funny isn't it? ^^

Me -the one and only Lydrielyn- and a drawing of me

Everyday Dette touches my heart by doing simple things. She might never realised it but she does. She's rich and she can have the best meal everyday, but she chose to have what I have just because. I only have vegetables everyday. She's so sweet....

Me and Eugene. Behind are my classmates; Aufa and Amir

Today, Eugene touches my heart. We were having breakfast, and like usual I just had vegetables. He knows that I love to eat chicken's fat -- especially the skin. So he gave it to me. I asked him why -- he also love that part. Then he said it's fine, he doesn't feel like eating it. So I was like "what??? don't you know that the skin is the best part you can ever have??" Then he turned to me and said, "that's why I gave it to you", with a smile on his face. Oh, my! That's like so sweet!!!!!! ^^

If you look closely, it is a drawing which I stand  just next to it in the previous pic. It's a drawing by Dette and Eugene. They said that it really looks like me. =.="

See, I have the best persons to accompany me. How bout you? :)

New Me!

Some of my friends are curious about how do I look now since I've deleted my facebook. Well, I didn't change much. How much can I change, anyway? It's not that a black ugly swan can turn to a beautiful white swan right? Ahahaha

Anyway, here are my recent pictures I took:

Me, Chad Edward Lim (a friend of mine), and my niece (Chrisccia Love)

From your left: Clifford Nicholas (My sis's bf), Lydriecca Koh (my sister), Aunt Rosni, Vequeencey Maitel (my cuzzie) and me. ^^

Me singing. ^^

See? Told ya, I'm just the old me..

Friends

Today, I had a small reunion with a group of friends from my first secondary school. It was amazing! I was so happy. We talked on and on, talked about our past, about what are we up to now, about future, about our relationships, experiences while we were all away, AMAZING!

Met Felleyn, my first best friend. We were friends since primary school. Went to my first secondary school together, went to matrics together, went for SPA offer together, too bad, I went on to another college after that. Then, Nano. We were friends since primary school too, went to matrics together as well, but she stayed there. So now she's waiting for university offer. Same goes to Sherly. And then, Christie. He was my neighbor until I moved to another neighborhood last few years. We were very closed back in primary school. But then he changed a lot when we studied in secondary school. I guess our gender built an imaginary wall between us. But still, I  take him as my bestfriend too. Lastly is Amos. We went to the same primary school but I didn't know him until we were put in the same class in Form 3. That's when I know him, and we got a little closer.

They are really nice. Too bad you don't them. Your loss. Ehehe

In conclusion, I had a blast! ^^