Time.

A good story I just need to share:

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It was a beautiful morning. A good day for a walk. A good day to talk. A good day for a great breakfast. In fact, it was almost a perfect morning. That was what she thought. Or maybe what she hoped. Or maybe what she wanted. Then, that was when everything went wrong. He started digging her past. Asking her about the past. The past which she tried hard to forget. The past which she wanted to run away from. The past which tore her heart apart.

"Who is he?" he asked with a heavy tone. A restless tone.

"It's him, my ex," she answered. Not wanting to keep secret. "I told you about him. Why'd you ask?"

"I saw your pictures last night. With him," he stopped.

"And?" she tried to figure what he's trying to say.

"And you looked happy in the picture," he added.

His sentence rendered her speechless. The memories of him started to play like a video-tape in her mind without her realizing. She then remembered how happy she was with him. How the world felt like when she was with him. How life was when she was with him. And a tear almost rolled out of her eyes when he started asking again, "do you miss him?"

She knew the answer right away. But she refused to answer. She didn't want to answer.

"Why did the two of you broke up?" he asked again. This time, she knew he wanted answer.

She gained all the strength she had and started spitting out the truth.

"It was my fault. If there is someone to blame, it should be me," she paused and then continued with a heavy tone, "I couldn't stand it anymore. I feel lonely. I feel ignored. But it was never his fault. He was trying hard for our future. I knew that. But if that is how we're going to live now and for the next 10 or 15 or 20 years more, I don't think I can stand it. Better end it now than later, right?" She tried not to cry.

He kept quiet, trying to digest what he just heard.

But her, she started recalling those time when they were still together. All the questions he asked bring her to the times, those happy ones, when she was with him. She then started to ask herself, 'was it a mistake?', 'should I make it up?', and the list went on. She was lost in her own world, didn't know what to do.

He shouldn't have asked. He shouldn't have reminded her of those days. He shouldn't have brought back those memories. He shouldn't have. No, he shouldn't. 

But back in her apartment, she knew she needed to be strong. 'It is just a phase in forgetting someone,' she tried to convince herself. She didn't want any doubt no more. She wanted to forget the past, and live in her new world. She told herself, being single won't harm her in any way. Love? It was just a fairy tale. Well, at least for her.

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A story taken from a book titled "Single or Couple?".

Nice story. ^^

My New Fave Song!

I fell in love to this song the first time I listened to it.

And the song is...........

Pag-Ibig by Yeng Constantino!!

She is a Filipino, ehem-ehem!

Ehehe

Sino pa, kung hindi ang family ko!!

Here's the video:

And here's the lyric:

Ang pag-ibig, hindi parang cellphone

'pag naluma, papalitan

Ang pag-big, hindi parang damit

'pag may bagong uso, papalitan

Kung sabihin kong mahal kita

Yan ay totoo sinta

Wag na wag kang magdududa

Hindi kita binobola

Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta

Kahit na ika'y pumangit, hindi kita ipagpapalit

Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo o sinta

Kahit na ika'y makalbo, hindi ako magbabago

Ah ha huh.. 4x

Ang pag-ibig, hindi parang pagkain

'pag pinagsawaan, pamimigay nalang

Ang pag-ibig, hindi parang pusa

pag maingay, ililigaw nalang

Kung sabihin kong mahal kita

Yan ay totoo sinta

Wag na wag kang magdududa

Hindi kita binobola

Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta

Kahit na ika'y tumaba, hindi ako mangangaliwa

Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta

Kahit na magka-wrinkles ka, iki-kiss pa rin kita.

Ah ha huh.. 4x

Love is patient,

love is kind,

it does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud,

it is not rude
It is a not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight of evil,

but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes and
always perseveres.


Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta
Kahit na topakin ka, iintindihin kita
Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta
Kahit na may kasalanan ka, iiyak ako pero papatawarin kita

Translation (which I made myself):

*only to make you understand the song (for non-Tagalog speaker)

Love is not like handphone,

After a while, you replace with a new one.

Love is not like clothes,

When there is a new trend, you change accordingly.

When I say I love you,

I really do mean it.

Please don't ever doubt,

I am not playing on you.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you are ugly, I will not replace you.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you are bald, I will still not change.

Love is not like food,

When you had enough, you give it to someone else.

Love is not like cats,

Making noise, (sorry, I'm not sure what does ililigaw mean)

When I say I love you,

I really do mean it.

Please don't ever doubt,

I am not playing on you.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you've became fat, I will not leave.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you have wrinkles, I will still kiss you.

Love is patient,

love is kind,

it does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud,

it is not rude
It is a not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight of evil,

but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes and

always perseveres.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you have mood swing, I will understand you.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you did wrong, I may cry but I will still forgive you.

*Since I haven't practiced my Tagalog for few years already, I've forgotten some of the words so there might be some mistakes in the translation version but I guess the overall is okay. Do correct me! ^^

Relax.

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After three semesters which are equivalent to one-and-a-half years, I just realized that I don't belong here. Yeah, here. Exactly, here! Ahahahaha

Man, 18 months.. Phew!

Nothing much I can do to quit, except if I.......

That's it! You've read my mind. Ahahahaha

Looking forward for next semester.

"Lala, you need to re-sit."

"I do?" (Pretend as if I AM surprised)

"Yeah.."

****

"Lala, I'm sorry to say but you failed for your re-sit paper.."

"Wow, at last!"

****

This draft was written by me last year, few months ago, few days before exam started, but I never post it. I guess I was being a coward to tell everyone how I hate it being here. Ahahaha but guess what, here I am still studying. What a life! ^^

I guess this is my call, this is what God wants me to do; to be a teacher, to be a good teacher, to be a good Christian teacher. But I'm afraid I can't do it. This is big, you know. People don't just go in front and start teaching. They need to have the qualities. The qualities to be  a good teacher. And do I have it? I don't know. But one thing for sure, teaching is something scary for me. What if I teach the wrong thing? What if my students spotted my mistake? What if they grew up believing things of which I taught but weren't right? What if I created a monster? What if....

Okay, Lala, you are freaking out.. Relax.. Meditate...

Seriously? Me? A teacher? Oh, God, show me the way....

The matchless image.

Most people think that wearing designer clothes will do wonders for their image. What they don't realize is that they have already been designed after a matchless image. Do you know that we are made from the image of God? Take note: I'm speaking as a Christian here.

But that is not the point.

Frankly speaking, I am still seriously upset and disappointed with the situation I wrote earlier. I mean, since the people in your life are made in the image of God, how should you behave towards them? Of course you should treat them equally, nicely, kindly, respectfully, with all those nice qualities. To insult them means to insult God, right?

It's funny how you can treat your pets nicely but not your neighbor. How you can feed your cat with exquisite food but not the poor. How you can provide a nice and comfortable place for your dog to rest but not those in needs. How you can converse humbly to your hamster but not to the people around you. Irony, don't you think?

Let us take a moment of silent and think critically, have we ever treated others so bad that make us feel bad right now? Don't worry, nobody is perfect. Pray, and that will heal everything. And this doesn't apply to Christians only, it applies to everyone. Happy day ahead, everyone.. ^^

P/s: This idea came from a book titled Bible Bytes. A really nice book which guide the youths in Bible Reading. :)

Is it right to compare your students to animals?

What an absurd question..

Of course NOT! And it never is!

Comparing your students to animals is like saying your standard is as the same as animals because you are of your students' own species. Can't you even think of that?

A situation of which my friend and I encountered today morning:

A student and her friends were on their way up meanwhile me and my friend were on our way going down the stairs. We didn't noticed that there's a so-called-lecturer behind us. Then suddenly after the girl and her friends passed by, the lecturer said this shocking sentence to that girl straight to her face, in front of her friends, "you call yourself a teacher? You even walk like a bull!" and walked down with her chin up.

 ........

I was seriously shocked. How can she, a lecturer, someone who should have good manner, who should've show good examples, say out that kind of thing? Seriously? Unforgivable. It is understandable that you want to produce a good teacher in the future, that is why you don't want that girl to behave like that, but do you have to act that way? (By the way, I still couldn't imagine how did the girl walk that the lecturer has to say the not-so-clever sentence) Can't you just call that girl and talk to her personally? Don't you think it will be a better idea to do so? Let's do some respect business here, will you? This world has enough war, we don't need any more hatred. Spread some love. Come on.

Sigh.

To all the future teachers out there, listen here. I am no one to advice all of you but you should know this fact;

IT IS NEVER RIGHT TO COMPARE YOUR STUDENTS TO ANIMALS.

They are human just like you. They have feelings too. Having power doesn't mean you have the right to embarrass others. You want to be respected so you have to start by respecting others. So this is the world today, manners are just history..

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient,

love is kind.

It does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud.

It is not rude,

it is not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

No more..

'No More' is actually a translation of an Indonesian song, 'Tiada Lagi' by Mayang Sari. Ahahaha

I love this song. It is an art. Not a mere art. It's a beautiful art. Here's the lyric and its' translation (which I made myself ^^)

Original version:

Sia-sia sudah

Kita jalin cinta

Bila hati s'lalu berbeda

Sampai kapan lagi

'ku harus menahan

Rasa kecewa di dalam dada

Seandainya kita masih bersatu,

Tak mungkin 'kan menyatu
Walau masih ada sisa cinta,

Biarkan saja berakhir sampai di sini

Korus:

Tiada lagi yang kuharapkan

Tiada lagi yang kuimpikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu

Tiada lagi kata cintaku,

Tak 'kan lagi 'ku bersamamu
Biar kusimpan semua kenanganku bersamamu.

Translated version:

There is no use anymore

To be together,

When our hearts couldn't agree to each other anymore.

Till when

Do I have to endure

The disappointment deep inside me?

Even if we're together-

We're just don't seem like it,

Even if there is still love-

Maybe we should just end it here..

Chorus:

No more hope,

no more dream,

Just let me be alone, without you..

No more love words,

No more us,

All that was left were memories, and I'm giving it all back to you..

Nice don't you think?

Relationship is not about love alone. It's about hope, it's about dream, it's about the couple. But of course the greatest power will be love.

1 Corinthians 13:13

Three things will last forever--faith, hope, and love--and the greatest of these is love.

Weird.

Is being a weird person wrong?

Is being different from others a sin?

If it is, then I am wrong and I have sinned against everyone.

Ahahahahaha

The thing is, I do what I do because I don't know what to do.

And I'm serious about it.

I just hope you will understand one day that there is this problem I have with myself which is confusion. I am a confused person. That is why I'm acting this way.

Please understand.

I need time.

I need to be alone.

And I need you to understand this:

I do what I do because I don't know what to do.

Sorry.

Farewell Dinner II

That night was awesome. Had a lot of fun!! ^^

From ur left; Jared, Jeremy, Walker

From ur left; Eugene, Dom, Papz

Our Church Members - Rockzszz!!!

Church Members - Rockzzssz!!

In the middle, Bro Anthony!!!

See how awesome are our uncle and aunties!

Sweet aunties!!

Before

After! Ahahahaha

Papz mimicking the 'cute pose' Ahahahaha

Potong kek jom!!!!

The hotties!

Our sempoi IPG's friends!

Leo and I

Haiku

I am studying haiku, studying its structure, and the elements inside. The traditional structure is said to be very simple, it has three lines in one stanza - the first line has 5 syllables, the second line has 7 syllables and the last line has 5 syllables, altogether 17 syllables. So while I was reading the translated version of Japanese Haiku in English, I found myself wondering what is it about haiku that wows everyone?

Look at this example;

Japanese version:

Harusameya

Kuwarenokorino

Kamoga naku

(Issa)

Translated version:

Spring rain -

Wild ducks yet uneaten

Quack.

We can see that haiku is as simple as that.

Simple wordings, 3 lines with 5-7-5 syllables.

And it seems like it doesn't make any sense after all.

Then I saw this joke about haiku on the internet.

Haikus are easy.

But sometimes they don't make sense.

Refrigerator.

Ahahahahaha

Don't know who did it but it really is funny.

The person made that sentences into a haiku.

Congratz!!
Ahahahahahahahaha

Walking alone by Elma Mitchell

Our houses stand apart, and so

The time had come I had to go

Out from the fire, into the snow

-He would have come, but I said No.

I walk beyond the lights I know,

The busy poet's harmless glow,

The lovers curtained from the snow

-He would have come, but I said No.

No voices on the winds that blow,

No light house in the swiveling snow,

No flare, no flame, the way I go

-But heel and toe, and heel and toe.

A poem about the determined rejection of a man's love. Elma repeats the line 'He would have come, but I said No' to show how determined the woman is in rejecting him. We can say that the woman in the poem was once fallen deeply in love with the man, however she chooses to go 'out from the fire, into the snow' without a concrete reason. Based on the title itself, it is possible that the woman thinks it is better to walk alone even though there is 'no flare, no flame, the way [she] go'.

The imagery used in this poem is really strong. By giving us the winter season as Elma keeps repeating the word 'snow', we can sense that the feeling inside the woman is only coldness. She knows that the man will be there for her as she keeps saying 'He would have come' but yet she insisted in saying 'I said No.' It is maybe because of the coldness inside her is all over her that she finds herself impossible to be with him anymore. Ironically, from the first verse, she says 'the time had come, I had to go' which tells us that she doesn't exactly want to go. It's just that she HAS to go. Wow!

This poem amazed me. Seriously.

Sometimes, you wish you could stay but you just can't because you couldn't afford risking yourself to be hurt if you stayed.

Do I look emo enough? Ahahaha

Farewell Dinner I

Our Brother Anthony from our church is leaving to UK for study next week so the members form our church decided to do farewell dinner for him. I felt quite sad since he helped us a lot here but I'm still happy for him. It's gonna be empty once he left but the memories will stay with us now and always. Thanks bro. ^^

So my friends and I went to Ipoh Parade to get something for him. And here are some pictures taken;

Getting something for him or for ourselves??

Do I have what it takes to be IPG's Next Top Model??Haha

There are some other pics... Too bad it's in Joseph's camera. Sigh... Never mind, a lot more pics coming for the real dinner!!