Magandang Arau! ^.^

U must be thinking, what the hell does that mean? Actually it just simply means: good day, one of the way for the Philippines to greet each other. So, Magandang Arau everyone!! :)

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Wednesday, December 26, 2012


You see, I'm a Christian and I do celebrate Christmas, the day Jesus was born. One thing about Christmas day is that families would gather and have a very wonderful, joyful time together. Where you can feel love everywhere. Since I was a little kid, I used to celebrate Christmas like no other day. I'd spent the whole day with my family and friends, eating cookies, getting presents, it's just awesome. But recently, I don't feel that anymore. For the past few years, I've been spending Christmas like it's just a normal day with only myself or my parents. That's all.

And this year, it got worse. Everybody knows that family is the best part of Christmas, or is it I'm the only one who thinks that way? My family always come first. In everything I do, family is the most important. When I date a guy, I'll make sure my family accepts him. If no, then I'll just let him go even if I love him so much. I don't mind. When I'm sick, my family is the last one to know, because I don't want my family to be worried of me. I want them to think that I'm always fine. When I know I did something wrong, I'll tell my family and apologize. I love my family more than I love myself. I tried to do my best in making my family to like me. But it just won't work. And I'm tired of all these. It really is tiring. I guess they don't need me anyway. Sigh.

Anyway, I'm very grateful that God still loves me. So I decided to take a year to live by myself as what my sister told me to. She once said that I'm the one who doesn't want to be with them, so if that is what she thinks, then that's what I'd do. I guess that will make them happy. And making them happy is my priority. :)

Next year is gonna be a whole new year for me. I gotta stand by myself. It's time for me to grow up. Are you with meeeeeee???? Ahahahaha

O Lord, help me to get through this, Amen.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Do you want to sleep over?

Okay, please don't misunderstand that title. Ahahaha
That's just a question I'd really want to ask to my friends. Surprised? I know right. I've been living for what, 20 years, and I've never have any experience of having my besties staying over at my place doing nothing, or just everything. You know like watch movies, play games, chit-chatting, anything. Like those things the girls usually do in movies. I wanna do that. It looks fun, doesn't it?

When I was a very young little girl, I always wanted my friends to sleep over. Too bad, their parents never let them to. I asked my parents once why wouldn't my friends' parents let them stay over? And the answer I got was maybe they are afraid that their kids will behave inappropriately or cause any trouble and so on. Well, when I looked back, maybe there are two or three times my friends did stay over but that was because  of they were having a bad time with their family. It made the stay-over a bit sad as we would talk about their problems. To do something fun makes us somewhat guilty. That was the only experience I've ever had when I was in primary school.

Then in secondary school, despite of having my apartment all by myself, I'd never have the thought of bringing my friends home. I guess it was because back in that time, most or I suppose all of my friends are rich. Like REALLY rich. So taking them to my small apartment with nothing inside is like, yeah right.. So I never did.

Now, becoming a young adult, suddenly the urge of asking my friends to sleep over came back. I don't know why. I guess I just need friends to socialize. I have seven sisters and five of them are married, leaving me and my younger sister alone. We used to spend our nights talking, gossiping, insulting *of course in a good way*, mocking, all those stuffs. And after they got married, all those stuffs are being taken away slowly. It makes me sad, and lonely, and... I don't know, depressed? Sigh. I missed those times....

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Awesome Holiday!

I must say that this holiday is just as awesome as it can be! Attending my sister's wedding with my friends from my college, being a tourist at my own hometown, having great meals everyday, damn, I call this heaven! :D

However, since my sister got married, everybody starts focusing on me. Asking whether I've found that someone, whether I'm interested in their sons, whether I'm still single and available, oh it scares the shit out of me! Ahahaha
You see, I'm still young. Just because it's my turn now, doesn't mean I have to find a man right away, no? I still have what, 3 more years to graduate? Come on, give me a break!

Okay, forget that. Have you ever be a tourist at your own town? If no, you are so gonna regret! I used to think that we can go to all these tourists' attraction at our hometown ANYTIME. Well, that's true. But the next question I should have asked myself was "when?" So I decided to go around Sandakan as a tourist for the first time and I found myself being very excited spending my time around! It's like I now see Sandakan as a very different place than the one that I've always seen. Oh, how I love my city!

Next topic is fooooodddddd.. ahahaha
I've been living like a princess lately. Waking up with a Ferrero Rocher chocolate as breakfast, or a Kinder Bueno, or a bread toast, having a long hot shower.. of course a princess doesn't do that. What I meant was I was living happily like a princess. :)
How I love it when I can have desserts after having my meals. You see, being a college student, everything is limited. You can't choose to live luxuriously in college unless it's okay for you to ask money from your parents. For me, being a young adult, I'd rather work than to ask money from my parents. But of course sometimes there has to be an exception. Ehehe
However, being home, everything is there. It's like "food, food everywhere". And it's not just food, it's angels' food. Ahahaha

I guess that's all for now. Talking about food makes me hungry. Ahahahaha