Magandang Arau! ^.^

U must be thinking, what the hell does that mean? Actually it just simply means: good day, one of the way for the Philippines to greet each other. So, Magandang Arau everyone!! :)

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Wednesday, December 26, 2012


You see, I'm a Christian and I do celebrate Christmas, the day Jesus was born. One thing about Christmas day is that families would gather and have a very wonderful, joyful time together. Where you can feel love everywhere. Since I was a little kid, I used to celebrate Christmas like no other day. I'd spent the whole day with my family and friends, eating cookies, getting presents, it's just awesome. But recently, I don't feel that anymore. For the past few years, I've been spending Christmas like it's just a normal day with only myself or my parents. That's all.

And this year, it got worse. Everybody knows that family is the best part of Christmas, or is it I'm the only one who thinks that way? My family always come first. In everything I do, family is the most important. When I date a guy, I'll make sure my family accepts him. If no, then I'll just let him go even if I love him so much. I don't mind. When I'm sick, my family is the last one to know, because I don't want my family to be worried of me. I want them to think that I'm always fine. When I know I did something wrong, I'll tell my family and apologize. I love my family more than I love myself. I tried to do my best in making my family to like me. But it just won't work. And I'm tired of all these. It really is tiring. I guess they don't need me anyway. Sigh.

Anyway, I'm very grateful that God still loves me. So I decided to take a year to live by myself as what my sister told me to. She once said that I'm the one who doesn't want to be with them, so if that is what she thinks, then that's what I'd do. I guess that will make them happy. And making them happy is my priority. :)

Next year is gonna be a whole new year for me. I gotta stand by myself. It's time for me to grow up. Are you with meeeeeee???? Ahahahaha

O Lord, help me to get through this, Amen.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Do you want to sleep over?

Okay, please don't misunderstand that title. Ahahaha
That's just a question I'd really want to ask to my friends. Surprised? I know right. I've been living for what, 20 years, and I've never have any experience of having my besties staying over at my place doing nothing, or just everything. You know like watch movies, play games, chit-chatting, anything. Like those things the girls usually do in movies. I wanna do that. It looks fun, doesn't it?

When I was a very young little girl, I always wanted my friends to sleep over. Too bad, their parents never let them to. I asked my parents once why wouldn't my friends' parents let them stay over? And the answer I got was maybe they are afraid that their kids will behave inappropriately or cause any trouble and so on. Well, when I looked back, maybe there are two or three times my friends did stay over but that was because  of they were having a bad time with their family. It made the stay-over a bit sad as we would talk about their problems. To do something fun makes us somewhat guilty. That was the only experience I've ever had when I was in primary school.

Then in secondary school, despite of having my apartment all by myself, I'd never have the thought of bringing my friends home. I guess it was because back in that time, most or I suppose all of my friends are rich. Like REALLY rich. So taking them to my small apartment with nothing inside is like, yeah right.. So I never did.

Now, becoming a young adult, suddenly the urge of asking my friends to sleep over came back. I don't know why. I guess I just need friends to socialize. I have seven sisters and five of them are married, leaving me and my younger sister alone. We used to spend our nights talking, gossiping, insulting *of course in a good way*, mocking, all those stuffs. And after they got married, all those stuffs are being taken away slowly. It makes me sad, and lonely, and... I don't know, depressed? Sigh. I missed those times....

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Awesome Holiday!

I must say that this holiday is just as awesome as it can be! Attending my sister's wedding with my friends from my college, being a tourist at my own hometown, having great meals everyday, damn, I call this heaven! :D

However, since my sister got married, everybody starts focusing on me. Asking whether I've found that someone, whether I'm interested in their sons, whether I'm still single and available, oh it scares the shit out of me! Ahahaha
You see, I'm still young. Just because it's my turn now, doesn't mean I have to find a man right away, no? I still have what, 3 more years to graduate? Come on, give me a break!

Okay, forget that. Have you ever be a tourist at your own town? If no, you are so gonna regret! I used to think that we can go to all these tourists' attraction at our hometown ANYTIME. Well, that's true. But the next question I should have asked myself was "when?" So I decided to go around Sandakan as a tourist for the first time and I found myself being very excited spending my time around! It's like I now see Sandakan as a very different place than the one that I've always seen. Oh, how I love my city!

Next topic is fooooodddddd.. ahahaha
I've been living like a princess lately. Waking up with a Ferrero Rocher chocolate as breakfast, or a Kinder Bueno, or a bread toast, having a long hot shower.. of course a princess doesn't do that. What I meant was I was living happily like a princess. :)
How I love it when I can have desserts after having my meals. You see, being a college student, everything is limited. You can't choose to live luxuriously in college unless it's okay for you to ask money from your parents. For me, being a young adult, I'd rather work than to ask money from my parents. But of course sometimes there has to be an exception. Ehehe
However, being home, everything is there. It's like "food, food everywhere". And it's not just food, it's angels' food. Ahahaha

I guess that's all for now. Talking about food makes me hungry. Ahahahaha

Saturday, October 20, 2012


Love is simple.
I love you, you love me.
But to be with someone you love is not as simple as that.
There will always be challenges, barriers that won't go.
They are so strong that they make you feel weak.
They make you feel like giving up.
They suffocate you.
They kill you.

Love is beautiful.
When you start loving someone, the world feels like heaven.
But love can be deceiving.
It hurts thousands of people.
Loving someone means you are ready to be hurt.
It means you are ready to fall apart.
It means crying is going to be a part of your life.
It means a litre of tears.

I wish love is like a fairytale.
Where there is only a witch and her plans.
Where there is a man with his true love.
Where there is no other.
Where there is no lie.
Where there is no religion.
Where there is only you and me.
Yeah, I wish.
I really wish.

I wish love is like how they described it in love songs.
'I won't give up', says Jason Mraz.
To be 'Crazy in love' like Beyonce.
To 'Love you inside out' says Bee Gees.
Because Barry White 'can't get enough of your love, babe'.
Always be 'close to you', says The Carpenters.
Because Ray Charles know 'I can't stop loving you'.
Trust me, these are the words I really want you to hear.
I really want you to know.
I really do.


Monday, July 23, 2012

Renew Summer II

This is the second post about Renew Summer, my band! Ehehe this time, there's a video I'd like to share with u guys. It's our first performance. A friend of mine uploaded it in YouTube and tagged me in Facebook and I was like, wow, we're in YouTube! Ahahahaha

So, here it is!

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Jayesslee Live in KL 2012!!

I just couldn't believe it!
They were here! Right in front of my eyes!
So on the 23rd of June, I went down to KL just to see them. It was an exciting, fun, and full-of-adventure experience!!!

I bought the VIP ticket which costs me RM200, and I get to sit at the first 20 seats I think. Anyway, Victor (my junior) came along and he bought the VVIP ticket so he get to sit at the front row. He even get to see the twins face to face and the chance to take a picture with them! How lucky! I hate you, Victor Tan Eik Ter!!!!

However, I get my lanyard to be signed by Jayesslee with Victor's help. So, I guess that is more than enough.. Hohoho we were only allowed to take pics and vids of them performing the first two songs. So I didn't have much of their pics and videos. Because of their concert, we have to put up a night at KL Sentral after the concert because we didn't have other place to stay and to go back to Ipoh that night is impossible as the train has already stopped operating. We have no better idea but to lepak at KL Sentral, waiting for the train to operate early in the morning. Huhu

Anyway, these are some pics we've taken along the journey!

Taken at Mdm Lin's restaurant at Jusco Maluri

Menara PGRM-waiting to get in!

Jayesslee's posters

Normal ticket

VIP ticket - my line


The view from where I was seated.. :(

There they are!

Me with Andy - Sonia's (Jayesslee) husband!

On the way back from the concert

My lanyard. Can u see their signature??

Ignore the excited face ^^

Me and Victor - fell asleep at McD, KL Sentral

Pity us.. but for Jayesslee? Worth it!

Our breakfast..

About 5 or 6am

The tired face.. T.T
Jayesslee, please come again!! I promise I'll buy the VVIP ticket this time! :)

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Macklemore - Wings

Macklemore, might not be as popular as the other hip hop artists, but I like him. No, scratch that. I LOOVVEEE him! He is not just a rapper, he is a philosopher. His songs are all inspiring and I love this one song best - Wings. Hope you guys enjoy it like I do! ^^

Remember to check on the lyric as well!

(feat. Ryan Lewis)

I was seven years old, when I got my first pair
And I stepped outside
And I was like, Momma, this air bubble right here, it's gonna make me fly
I hit back-court, and when I jumped, I jumped, I swear I got so high
I touched the net, Momma I touched the net, this is the best day of my life
Air Max's wAS next,
That air bubble, that mesh
The box, the smell, the stuffin', the tread, in school
I was so cool
I knew that I couldn't crease 'em
My friends couldn't afford 'em
Four stripes, some Air-didas
On the court I wasn't the best, but my kicks were like the pros
Yo, I stick out my tongue so everyone could see that logo
Nike Air Flight, but bad was so dope
And then my friend Carlos' brother got murdered for his fours, whoa

See he just wanted a jump shot, but they wanted to start a cult though
Didn't wanna get caught, from Genesee Park to Othello
You could clown for those Probings, with the velcro
Those were not tight
I was trying to fly without leaving the ground,
Cause I wanted to be like Mike, right
Wanted to be him, I wanted to be that guy, I wanted to touch the rim
I wanted to be cool, and I wanted to fit in,
I wanted what he had, America, it begins

I want to fly
Can you take me far away
Give me a star to reach for
Tell me what it takes
And I'll go so high
I'll go so high
My feet won't touch the ground
Stitch my wings
And pull the strings
I bought these dreams
That all fall down

We want what we can't have, commodity makes us want it
So expensive, damn, I just got to flaunt it
Got to show 'em, so exclusive, this that new shit
A hundred dollars for a pair of shoes I would never hoop in
Look at me, look at me, I'm a cool kid
I'm an individual, yea, but I'm part of a movement
My movement told me be a consumer and I consumed it
They told me to just do it, I listened to what that swoosh said
Look at what that swoosh did
See it consumed my thoughts
Are you stupid, don't crease 'em, just leave 'em in that box
Strangled by these laces, laces I can barely talk
That's my air bubble and I'm lost, if it pops
We are what we wear, we wear what we are
But see I look inside the mirror and think Phil Knight tricked us all
Will I stand for change, or stay in my box
These Nikes help me define me, but I'm trying to take mine, off

I want to fly
Can you take me far away
Give me a star to reach for
Tell me what it takes
And I'll go so high
I'll go so high
My feet won't touch the ground
Stitch my wings
And pull the strings
I bought these dreams
That all fall down

They started out, with what I wear to school
That first day, like these are what make you cool
And this pair, this would be my parachute
So much more than just a pair of shoes
Nah, this is what I am
What I wore, this is the source of my youth
This dream that they sold to you
For a hundred dollars and some change
Consumption is in the veins
And now I see it's just another pair of shoes 

Lyric is taken from

Wednesday, June 13, 2012


Marking Form 3 exam papers for Mathematics subject last night was really a devastating experience. It was sad. Why? Because it reminded me of who I was back in high school. It reminded me of my passion few years back. And now, here I am teaching English language. A subject that I have no interest in since I couldn't remember when.

I have to agree that language is beautiful. With alphabets, words, sentences, they make us understand each other. They are special. But I never really into language. It's ironic because I speak in more than 3 languages, maybe not that good but still understandable. I find language interesting, but not to the point where I would want to learn everything about it.

Maths? It's a completely different matter. I can sit down and look at numbers for hours without stopping. It makes me wonder, makes me think, it fascinates me, it amazes me. They say once I became a real teacher, I'd be able to teach my students Mathematics as well, but primary school's Maths? Come on! I don't just want to teach numbers. I want to teach others and myself about what we can do with numbers. I remembered how hard I work in solving Additional Mathematics questions when I was in high school. Thinking how satisfied I was once I solved the equation. I was so passionate in it. But now? What to solve in English language?

I now understand the reason why I was not that passionate like I used to be in high school. Simply because I was not in the field that my passion lives in. Checking the answer scheme last night had really opened my eyes wide. That was the first time in years after my high school that I really sit down and analyze.

Fuh! I guess there's nothing I can do anyway. Sayonara, Mr. Mathematics. T.T

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Everlasting Friendship

Looking through my pieces of work about 2 years ago, I stumbled on an essay which has made me smile. And I am very excited to show it to you guys!It is about 'Everlasting Friendship'. Have fun reading! :)

     Generally, based on the Macmillan English Dictionary (2007, pg 504), everlasting is 
 defined as something that will continue to exist forever meanwhile friendship means a relationship between people who are friends or the feeling of being friends with others. So basically, everlasting friendship means a relationship between people that lasts for a lifetime. But for sure, every each of us will have our own different perception of the word ‘everlasting friendship’. As quoted by Farah Syuhana, the most relaxed person in our small circle of friends, everlasting friendship means something that is built with trust, love and care throughout the whole friendship process. Meanwhile, Bernadette, the most timid person, said that “it is when someone is willing to spend their free time for you and willing to listen to every useless thing you rant about”. It is funny to know that a single word – ‘everlasting friendship’, could be defined in million ways possible.

I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings - Maya Angelou

Picture taken from Second Air Division Memorial Library

Maya Angelou, the writer of the poem I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings has wrote the poem based on her true life story as an African-American woman that suffers in the early years of her life. It is an incredibly sad yet inspirational poem. Every word she used gives us the picture of what is going on in the past. The points which I am going to focus on are the theme of the poem, literary devices used in the poem, issues and concerns raised, and the tone and mood of the poem. 

            The theme of the poem I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings is about racial segregation. It talks about how life is before, back in America. It talks about the great wall built between the whites and the blacks which is clearly shown with the word she used as the metaphor-“free bird” and “caged bird”. Back in America, the racial segregation between the whites and blacks started during the 1800s and early to mid 1900s. The whites were so powerful that “he names the sky his own.” In contrast, the blacks can only “stands on the grave of dreams” and “sings of freedom”. The racism and the difference between the whites and colored people can obviously be seen in this poem. In the second stanza of the poem especially, gives us a negative feeling when Angelou used the word “but” to put a line between the free bird which is the whites, and the caged bird which is the blacks.

            The literary devices used in this poem are metaphor, oxymoron, anaphora and repetition. Metaphor such as “caged bird” and “free bird” are used to describe the black race and the white race. Meanwhile the word “sing” is always related to happiness but in this poem, it is used as a medium to voice out the sadness, crying for freedom, and telling the world about hoe helpless the blacks are, which created the element of oxymoron. Angelou also used anaphora in the 2nd stanza, line 4 to 6, in the 4th stanza, last two lines, and in the 5th stanza, line 2 and 3. To get better understanding of the poem, she used repetition to stress out the meaning in 2nd stanza, last 3 lines, and 3rd stanza, the first three lines.

            Next, when talking about the mood and tone of this poem, they were separated into two; free bird and caged bird. The free bird carries more positive mood such as joyous, dignified, confident and powerful meanwhile the tone are joyful, audacious, proud, and fanciful. In contrast, the caged bird carries more negative mood such as tense, painful, terrifying, heartbroken, and really sad mood meanwhile the tone are afraid, poignant, bitter, pitiful and dramatic. We can hear it through the phrases used in the poem.

            Lastly, by analyzing this poem, I realized that there is a big issue that the world need to be aware of which is racial segregation. To make the world a better place to live, this issue should be avoided. We can see clearly through this poem, how suffering life can be when there is a wall between the races that separate them as Eleanor Roosevelt said, “justice cannot be for one side alone, but must be for both”. I believe that all of us should live in this world as one, not as you and me. When the ‘one’ is separated, then it is no longer one but becoming two different parts which then leads to misunderstanding and disagreement.

*Do contact me if you need the references. By the way, remember not to plagiarize. This is for you to refer to!  ^^

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

My New Baby!!

It feels great to be back home. Home sweet home, as the old saying goes! However, it's not only that. It's more to the excitement of having my new baby Skyline!!!! :)

I was really disappointed the other day for my dad refused to help me to get a car in Ipoh. But once I got back to Sandakan, or more precisely 3 days after I set my feet at my homeland, there you go - Nissan Skyline 370GT. The first in Sandakan. Hohoho full accessories. I was like, what? Seriously? Fuck you! Ahahahaha

Okay, enough talking. Let the pictures tell you all! ^^

Oh yeah! This is life!

Do ignore the 'over-excited' expression.. -.-'

La la la.... ^^

It looks great from behind! Ahahaha

Getting ready for test-drive!

Ready or not Sandakan, here I come! Hahaha!

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Introvert or Extrovert?

While doing a research on personalities - introvert and extrovert especially, I stumbled on the quiz which apparently 'decides' whether you are an introvert or an extrovert. Before I go on with the result, let me share with you a little about these two.

The word introvert has always been associated with negative adjectives such as passive, quiet, sensitive and so on to compare to extrovert. While all of it might be true, the word actually can be interpreted more accurately by saying that an introvert is energized by being alone. Basically, it just means the same with the characteristics stated earlier. However, by putting it into the sentence 'energized by being alone', it sounds more positive and acceptable. Don't you think so? ^^

Meanwhile extrovert, as opposed to introvert, means energized by being around other people. So you'll just have to imagine how does that person bring about herself and you can already guess her characteristics. It's that simple.

So, how about my personality? Am I introvert, or am I extrovert? One thing for sure, I am not a pervert. Or am I? Ahahaha

The answer is..... NONE OF IT or shall I say BOTH? ^^
Because it says:

You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert.
You're a bit outgoing but also a bit reserved
Like most people, you enjoy being social
But you also value the time you have alone
You have struck a good balance!

Is that a good thing? And relating that to our National Philosophy of Education, does that mean that I have already reached the level of Human Capital? Ahahahaha ^^

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Nicholas Sparks. Again!

Yeah, here I am again with my favorite drug - Sparks' novels. They are addictive!!!

Thanks to the coming election, the students were given free book voucher which worth RM200!! With those vouchers, I was able to getting nearer to my collection of Sparks' novel. There is one novel though - Three Weeks With My Brother by Nicholas Sparks which is pretty hard to find. I guess it will come to me when it's time. I bought 8 novels by him and another 2 by other authors. Don't ask me how I was able to buy 10 novels with my vouchers because I might be put behind bars if 'they' know what I did. Ahahahaha

So I spent most of my time with my drugs. I cried, I laughed, I smiled, I frowned, all expressions start to wear on me as I read those novels. As usual, his writing touched me right into my heart. ^^

Here are some reviews from me about his novels:

The Lucky One

- This novel is really fun to read. With the elements of war and mystery, it just struck me as a really sexy story. When I start to read the novel, I start to imagine the handsome, muscular, young man, that follows his heart to look for a woman whom he barely know. That causes me to feel very excited and create a wild imagination of that man. Wow! Ahahahaha the story makes me even more excited as the man is keeping a secret from the woman. It keeps me wonder, when will the woman get to know the secret? Will she be mad if she knows? What if everything turns one way around if she gets to know? The elements of suspense makes me wanting to read more. Great job, Nicholas!

The Wedding

- this novel is a follow up story of The Notebook. So I'd  recommend you to read The Notebook first before you start The Wedding. But that doesn't mean that you won't understand the second novel if you didn't read the first one. It's just that if you read the first novel, there will be more feeling towards the second novel as it is related to the first one. You will understand why this person do this and why does it affect the other, or why do this person have to do this when it does not even make sense? See, it is amazing how Sparks relates all these questions together and write it all in a story. It is again an amazing job done by Sparks. When I read the story, it makes me appreciate everyone that I love in my life and make use of every seconds I have with them to tell them that I really love them for I won't know when will be the last time I'll be seeing them.. :(

A Bend in The Road

- Another romantic but really sad love story. The story is more to the love in a family rather than between a couple. A moment to pick between your family and your love one. It is not as simple as "I love you and so I'll be with you" or "I'm sorry, let's just break up. I love my family more than I do love you". No, it's not like that. It is more of " I really want to be with you but how can I when your brother killed my wife?" Wow.... I cried and cried and cried reading this novel. You see, it is not a simple decision. But making decision is never simple, is it?

Message in a Bottle

- Amazingly written by Sparks (when does he write that is never amazing?). I once too (when I was a kid of course) sent a message in a bottle. Just wondered whether it really can be a tool of communication. And it never came back. I guess it has broken into two and sank (Okay, forget about that). Somehow, the plot of the story flows so naturally that I can imagine it happen to me one day. (I'm a dreamer, you see) The romantic scenes between the characters are described so loving that I start to wonder, is there really a man out there that can love you that much? To the point where he can't even forget you even after you're dead.To the point that even when he starts dating, the only person he can think about is you. To the point that everything that happen around his world revolves around you. Amazing, huh? Guess, that just happen in a story...

At First Sight

- Okay, first of all, I made a mistake of reading this book first before I read  True Believer. I just noticed that this book is a follow up of True Believer. So I've just missed the element of suspense in the story as I'd already know what happened to the couple. This novel is not as exciting as the other novel (for me) since I don't really understand what happened to the couple earlier. So I'd suggest you read True Believer before you start At First Sight. ^^

Now I'm reading True Believer and I'm looking forward to read Nights in Rodanthe and The Rescue. Too bad, next week is already exam week so I guess I'd have to wait. But it's good though since I'd have something to read on the plane back to my hometown and also when I come back here. I'll be back home in roughly 3 weeks. Exam? Not really prepared, or shall I say not prepared at all. You see, I'm still not over with the idea that exam is the lousiest event ever created by human kind so I resent it. =.="

Go Nicholas!!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Renew Summer.

My 100th post at last!!
I don't write much it seemed since I've been blogging for 3 years now but this is only the 100th post. ^^
Anyway, today I'm going to introduce to you my new band, Renew Summer!!

So what do you think of the name?? To be honest, that name came to us just like that. We tried so hard for few weeks to find the most suitable name for our group but it was as hard as sitting for examination. Then on a Sunday night, it came to us in a way we could never expected. :)

This group was founded accidentally. Ahahahaha the story goes like this, I was asked to perform for an event in my institute. I don't know why but I had the feeling that that was going to be my last performance in here. So I decided to do something special, something out of the ordinary, something unforgettable. Too bad I couldn't find one. On Sunday, a week before the event, like usual me and my church member played some church songs, doing a new cover for each of the church songs. Then the idea came to me, why don't I made an acoustic cover of a song that I like? So after church that night, I go to my room and search for some songs that I'm quite familiar to and picked some songs. Then took my guitar and start searching for the chords. Still, I felt unsatisfied with it and again think of what should I do for my performance?

Then Jared crossed my mind.

He is my junior and my church member too. He is very good with music instruments. So I met him on Monday. I proposed the idea to him and he agreed so we looked for a song to be performed. We picked 'Jar of Hearts' by Christina Perry. Since he hadn't heard of that song before, so we started our practice on Tuesday. Then while practicing, we knew that something was missing. Suddenly he came up with an idea that we need one more person to complete the song. So we called Dominic.

Dominic is really good with acoustic guitar. He usually plays for our CF's gathering. And the combination of us three seemed amazing!! (puji diri sendiri pula.....) ahahahaha

Okay, that's me. ^^

The name of our group came later, after the performance. Funny, isn't it? That Friday when we performed, we don't know what name should we give so at last we asked them to just say out our name. Later that night, the Director of Jabatan Kebudayaan told us that he was interested to seeing us again so he invited us for another event outside. That moment, we knew we need a name for our group. So that coming Sunday, as I said earlier, we found that name -- or rather that name found us. There we go, Renew Summer. :)

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Photoshoot II

I had another photo shoot yesterday for my institute's batik. A friend asked me to be the model just to show the students how do the batiks look like. So I did it for the sake of my friend and also for the sake of my beloved college. Rather than paying someone to be the model, it is better to have a free service right? Little did I know, those pictures have become a controversy. Can u believe it? A real controversy. What the hell!

So the pic which has caused controversy is this one:

I was like, what?? What is wrong with my poses that they have to condemn me?? They were saying that my poses are way too much, over, blah blah blah... Are you kidding me?? Please, stop criticizing others. Talking bad about other people doesn't make you better. If you are way much better than me, then shouldn't you be there, instead of me? I helped my college, did you? You did nothing but criticizing people. I don't know how is it possible for you to be a Malaysian because as far as I know, rakyat Malaysia berbudi bahasa!

A note for those dummies:

First of all, you are supposed to look at the design of the batiks, not me, you silly!

Second of all, I am so gonna say out loud that MY POSES ARE NOT TOO MUCH. Try to compare my poses with the other models, aren't they all the same??

Thirdly, I did this for the sake of my institute. Kau ada?? Have you ever lend a hand each time our institute need you?

Fourthly, being a Muslim is not simply about your statuses in Facebook or pictures that you uploaded or clothes that you wore. Islam comes from your heart. When you love your God, you will practice what He teaches. And I believe He did not teach you to condemn others. Wearing a purdah doesn't make you a Muslim. No offense. Just as a reminder.

For the fifth, you should thank God I have deactivated my Facebook account, because If I haven't, you're dead man. Seriously.

O God, please make me strong. And please forgive all my evil thoughts as I'm writing this post, because I have forgive those who had condemned me through their Facebook account or their mouth or in their mind. Amen.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Internet Banking.

I llloooooovvvvvveeeeeee online services. I mean, who doesn't like it? You just have to sit back and relax 'cause everything is on the tip of your finger! One of the services online I love the most is internet banking. You can reload your mobile, pay your bills, check your balance, and all sort of things. And I started using  Internet Banking with Maybank2u. I have to admit, it is soooo coooolllll! I love it! It has never disappoint me, YET. Well, I've been using this Internet Banking for a few years now and thank God I haven't met any problem as YET. I pay most of my bills, my share, my prepaid reload using Maybank2u. Two thumbs up for Maybank!!!

And then I started to get my pay. I have to use a new bank as asked by my employer. Wow! BSN is my second choice! Even though I encountered some problems for the time I'm using it, still I like it. Not bad at all. They really are trying their best to improve their Internet Banking service. One thumb up BSN!

Then, I have to open up another account. So I picked Bank Rakyat as it too offers Internet Banking. And......
Speechless. I encountered ALL SORT OF PROBLEMS. Seriously. Frustrating. I was so disappointed to the extent that I decided to send an e-mail of complaint (I'm one of the people who pick a letter of complaint as my last choice) and hoping that I'll get a good response. It turned out, they did nothing and just leave it like that. What the hell?! They even dare to ask me to call their service center and explain what is my problem. Obviously, they didn't even try to read my e-mail!! Shocking, man!

My advice:
Maybank will always be the best choice for Internet Banking! :)
No offense other banks.. especially Bank Rakyat.. ^^

Thursday, March 8, 2012

My New Movie!

Okay, after the beauty pageant thing, I have to admit, life is a wowww!!!! So here's my new movie. Here I come, Hollywood!!!

Here's a synopsis about this movie - Cash:

When a suitcase is thrown out of a car which is involved in a car chase and lands on the car of Sam Phelan (Chris Hemsworth), he initially curses his luck. But then he finds the suitcase is loaded with money. After bringing the money to his home, he convinces his wife Leslie (Lala Koh), that they should use the money.

Meanwhile Pyke Kubic (Sean Bean) visits his twin brother Reese (also Bean) in jail, who tells him that he threw a suitcase with about half a million dollars from his car, when he was being chased by the police. Pyke decides to go and find the money.
After Pyke finds the Phelans, he asks for the money back. They return whatever money they have left after they bought a new car, furniture and other minor expenses. Pyke forces the Phelans to rob stores, in order to get him the amount of money the Phelans spent, which they do, reluctantly at first, but later with more of a taste for it. After robbing over ten stores in the course of a few days, they are still short on the money, and Sam proposes to rob a bank. There he changes the gun without bullets which Pyke gave him with that of the guards, and shoots Pyke in a struggle. Pyke's car and his corpse are sent to a junkyard, where a worker is bribed into destroying the car and the body.
The Phelans again keep the money, but return all they stole, adding damages for people who got hurt in the course of the robberies. Unknown to them, Reese, the true owner of the cash, has been released from prison.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

A date with Taylor Lautner.

I only managed to take a picture at the end of our date. Spent the whole day together but took only a picture. What a waste! Anyway, the date was amazing. So this is life after being

Me and Taylor!


I never thought the day would come. I never thought I will be crowned. I feel awesome!!!!!!!! ^^

Miss Awesome 2012 - Lydrielyn Koh
*Look at that - Miss Universe 2012.... fuh! ^^

Sunday, February 26, 2012


A good story I just need to share:

It was a beautiful morning. A good day for a walk. A good day to talk. A good day for a great breakfast. In fact, it was almost a perfect morning. That was what she thought. Or maybe what she hoped. Or maybe what she wanted. Then, that was when everything went wrong. He started digging her past. Asking her about the past. The past which she tried hard to forget. The past which she wanted to run away from. The past which tore her heart apart.

"Who is he?" he asked with a heavy tone. A restless tone.
"It's him, my ex," she answered. Not wanting to keep secret. "I told you about him. Why'd you ask?"
"I saw your pictures last night. With him," he stopped.
"And?" she tried to figure what he's trying to say.
"And you looked happy in the picture," he added.

His sentence rendered her speechless. The memories of him started to play like a video-tape in her mind without her realizing. She then remembered how happy she was with him. How the world felt like when she was with him. How life was when she was with him. And a tear almost rolled out of her eyes when he started asking again, "do you miss him?"

She knew the answer right away. But she refused to answer. She didn't want to answer.

"Why did the two of you broke up?" he asked again. This time, she knew he wanted answer.

She gained all the strength she had and started spitting out the truth.

"It was my fault. If there is someone to blame, it should be me," she paused and then continued with a heavy tone, "I couldn't stand it anymore. I feel lonely. I feel ignored. But it was never his fault. He was trying hard for our future. I knew that. But if that is how we're going to live now and for the next 10 or 15 or 20 years more, I don't think I can stand it. Better end it now than later, right?" She tried not to cry.

He kept quiet, trying to digest what he just heard.

But her, she started recalling those time when they were still together. All the questions he asked bring her to the times, those happy ones, when she was with him. She then started to ask herself, 'was it a mistake?', 'should I make it up?', and the list went on. She was lost in her own world, didn't know what to do.

He shouldn't have asked. He shouldn't have reminded her of those days. He shouldn't have brought back those memories. He shouldn't have. No, he shouldn't. 

But back in her apartment, she knew she needed to be strong. 'It is just a phase in forgetting someone,' she tried to convince herself. She didn't want any doubt no more. She wanted to forget the past, and live in her new world. She told herself, being single won't harm her in any way. Love? It was just a fairy tale. Well, at least for her.

A story taken from a book titled "Single or Couple?".
Nice story. ^^