Magandang Arau! ^.^


U must be thinking, what the hell does that mean? Actually it just simply means: good day, one of the way for the Philippines to greet each other. So, Magandang Arau everyone!! :)

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Monday, December 27, 2010

Nobody..

A week more before I leave here. Sad. Relieved. Heartbroken. Everything in one. Feel glad anyway, that I met my family. But honestly, I've only spent like few days with them after a month here? Why? Busy with other not-that-important thing. T_T

I fought with my sisters back few days before. Feeling so useless. I'm no one to them. I love them more than I love myself, but I guess love by one side alone means nothing. I thought, maybe next year I should just go back home few days before Christmas to avoid anything like this happen again. They don't need me as much as I need them anyway.

There are lots of question I wish I can ask God right now. Why am I so different with my other sisters? I am not as pretty as they are. Not as clever as they are. Not as kind as they are. Not as good as they are. I'm sucks in relationship. I'm no one. I'm nobody. I bring nothing to others' life. I hurt others without realizing how much I hurt them. I'm not good in making friends. I have no sense of humor like my sisters do. I don't understand my parents like they do. I know nobody's perfect, but does that mean I have to be lacked in everything? I shouldn't be left alive in the first place by God if this is what I should live. Anyway, I'm glad He loves me, I know He does.

Does He?.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

December!

Oh My Goodnesssssss !!
It's December, the month of Christmas! Can't believe it's already December. Time flies, huh? :D

I'm now having a great holiday with my family and my son, Hideaki. Also busy with my business, christmas cookies.. ehehe I've been doing this for 3 years including 2010. Amazing, huh? It's about passion, babeh! (and of course a lil bit because of the wants of making money!) ahahahaha

I even created a website for my cookies that I'm selling.. Well, we have to do what we can to grab customers, don't we? That's what we call business. U don't have customers, u won't make money. Useless.

Anyway, even though I am already extremely busy baking cookies, I've no idea why am I still involved with few useless events. Performing for sports day? Giving speech for telecommunication event? Sigh. Life is not a life when it gives you none, right? T.T

Monday, November 8, 2010

Malaysians !

I wanted to do my assignment at first, but changed my mind when I saw my CLEO magazine in my drawer. It was August 2010 issue; an article which I don't think I ever read it (even though it is my magazine) and I was shocked I left it inside my drawer for 3 months untouched!

Then I saw this article: 10 Things to Love About Malaysians

I was a little bit curious. So I read it through.

And.....

I found it awesome!!!!!

So I decided to share this article to all. Credit to Deborah Raj, the writer of this article!

#1 Everyone is related
"Hello, aunty. Hello, uncle" Are you related to them? No. Are you close friends with them so you're pretty much family? No. Have you ever met this person in your life? No. Whether it's a taxi driver or security guard, isn't it endearing how Malaysians diminish the distance between strangers? I put it down to the sense of community and brotherhood we've always been exposed to. I believe this is also the reason why Malaysians are so well-loved around the world.

#2 Pull-table culture
Malaysians share a strong sense of camaraderie so I'm sure you've bore witness to or even taken part in this activity countless of times. You and a group of friends or workmates go out together, but there isn't enough space around one table, so what does the clever Malaysians do? Merge two tables together! It's truly an amiable trait that Malaysians will do whatever shifting is necessary so that nobody is ever left behind or left out.

#3 Opinionated (silently)
Some people may think that Malaysia's multicultural society is a recipe for disaster. How could people so different live in such a harmony? I can sum it up in one word - tolerance. Malaysians are one of the most tolerant people you'll ever meet; we'd rather give someone the benefit of the doubt than cause conflict or fuss. This is the same reason why we aren't often seen as openly opinionated people. Don't be fooled though, being the resourceful people that we are, we have some insightful feedback to share - all you have to do is ask! We'll even promise to tolerate you if you disagree.

#4 Let's get loud!
I think Malaysians are quite an enthusiastic tribe of people, wouldn't you agree? Whether it's chatting with a fellow colleague in the lift or meeting friends for coffee after work, we get very passionate about what we're saying, Packed with emotion, conversations are full of gusto, facial expressions and of course epic hand gestures. It's no wonder why Malaysians are often the life of a party as we are trained storytellers and skilled in the art of entertaining!

#5 "Have you eaten?"
Some people say "good morning", others say "hello", Malaysians ask a more important question: "is your belly full?" in Malay it's "dah makan?" in Tamil it's "sapa de?" in Cantonese it's "sek bao mei?" in Hokkien it's "jia bah boi?" and the list goes on. Maybe we had it right all along, after all a satisfied tummy is a happy one, so instead of asking howw your day's been, Malaysian's gauge it from your eating habits! Better still, if they notice you've been less than chirpy, they wouldn't hesitate to make your day by taking you for a teh tarik and a nasi lemak.

#6 "Got discoun , ah?"
Let's get one thing straight, Malaysians aren't cheap, we just like a good bargain! Buyers and seller both know this so there's absolutely no harm in asking for a wee discount. It's in the Malaysian blood. You've really got nothing to lose, if they say no, you were willing to pay the opening price anyway, right? Just remember the Malaysian rule of thumb, if you by two or more items, you should always get a "nice price: for it. It's economies of scale after all!

#7 Mind your language
Having influences from so many cultures, is it any wonder that English language spoken in Malaysia is as distinct as it is? For emphasis, Malaysians end every sentence with the suffix "la" or "ar". For instance, a question: "Do you want something to drink?" should be replied with "No la". If you ask "where did you go?", the reply "nowhere ar, I was here la" drives the message home. Apart from that, Malaysian-English is often shortened or simplified. For example, instead of saying, "Haven't seen you for a long time. How have you been?" Malaysians would say "Long time no see! OK or not?" or "Would you want to try some cake?" would be "Wan cake or not?" As grammatically incorrect as it is, it definitely packs a punch and succesfully gets the message across - especially if you're Malaysian.

#8 Go-getters!
Malaysians believe in working hard and reaping the benefits. So, it really isn't a new discovery that Malaysians aren't the sort of people to sit back and wait for something to come to them. We believe if you want something it is your responsibility to take action to achieve the outcome you desire. This may be misconstrued as rude at times especially when it comes to queuing but in fact, Malaysians are just go-getters, they have their eye on the prize and are focused on achieving those goals whether it's a job promotion or being served at a cafe. Malaysians simply realize that doing whatever it takes wins the race after all!

#9 Curiousity killed the cat?
But not the Malaysians! Malaysians are naturally inquisitive people; this is the main reason why we make friends so easily but it's also the reason why any commotion in a shopping mall or accident on the road would cause a crowd. We're simply observant and curious to see what's going on. Can't fault a Malaysian for wanting to stay abreast on all issues and commotion happening around them!

#10 Ethnic Fridays
Yes, Friday is the best day of the week in just about any country but it's a special day in Malaysia - its traditional dress-up day! Being the multicultural nation that we are, what better way to celebrate our diversity and our unique cultures than by wearing the traditional get-s up of the various races. It is through activities like this that Malaysians are able to wear anything from an Indian Punjabi pantsuit to a Malay baju kurung while they remember, recognize and appreciate that we are part of a greta melting pot in Malaysia.


I'm wearing pink color shirt with tudung

I am wearing lengga, Indian costume

This is my favorite costume! Kadazan costume!!

Semangat 1 Malaysia !! ^_^

Inexplicable!

Life is getting harder and harder for me here. I became everyone's burden and I can't stop blaming myself for being that rascal. Feels like suicidal. Lord, please help me to get through this!!

I want to apologize to every single person in my life. 'Someone' always tell me that I do cheer everyone around me. Apparently, I did not. In fact, I bring bad luck to everyone who are close with me. Susahkan orang ja.... T.T

This lyric is dedicated to all of you; I am SORRY.



As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about
responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry that your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the FEDS came and took me away

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you
I’ll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

Sunday, November 7, 2010

That's Just The Way Things Are

Few months passed me by, and I faced lots of experiences which I can never even think of! I went to Pangkor Island for a gerko-trip (one of the activity I need to get involved in to pass the subject), was robbed and I lost all my favorite things and valuable stuffs, getting better and more stable love relationship, coping myself well in this institute, fuh! This is just the way things are, isn't it? ^^,

I'm going back to my lovely hometown, in just another two weeks. Feeling so excited! Can't wait to go back...... hohoho

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Home-Sick!

Uh, damn it!!
I miss home, miss my family, miss my son, miss my hometown, miss my friends, miss every single thing in my life!!!!
It's goin' to be a very tough life here, in Perak, by myself. . .
Need someone to talk, but that someone, which I used to wish that he will always be my side, is no longer with me. . he is too busy with his own world. . *depressed* . . . T.T
I am now with God alone~ my family are so far a way, my friends, and HIM. . . . they are no more with me. . . . . =.=

Friday, July 16, 2010

Another shocking event!!

OMG! I'm really into hot soup now! I don't know what to do. I got another offer from Kementerian Pendidikan Malaysia. To take degree in TESL, education course. I want it since the salary is quite a price but I'm getting comfortable with the environment and the subjects in ICAN college, not to mention my lovely friends I'm going to leave if I leave this place. . T.T

Wish God can show me the right pathway for my life. I'm sick of deciding eveything. They say take it or leave it, but it's not that easy! Trust me!!

Sunday, July 11, 2010

ICAN college

It's been two weeks I'm in KL. As what I'm expecting, it was plain boring, saddening (if that's counts as a word. . ahahaha), scary, lots of quite negative things. BUT still I will try to get use with these situation. Not that bad at all cause I met lots of new friends too, got new experiences which are funny, some are sad and some are exciting. OKAY-LAH. . . ahahahaha
I miss home, my friends back in Sabah and Labuan, my baby Hideaki, every single person in my life. Wish I can be there with them. Here, some are being very nice to me, some are not. Well, we cannot expect everyone to be nice with us, can we? :D
But, ICAN college is the best college I've ever been. It was cool, sporting, relaxing, slumber, everything was just nice. Not stress at all. Go ICAN!! Ahahahaha :D

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Do not mistake Mr. Right Now for Mr. Right

Isn't it a very confusing statement? I felt weird when I read it at first but then after a while, I started to understand it. Unbelievable? Believe it. Ahahaha!

To those who really knows me, they know that I don't really trust in LOVE. Well, u can't find true love nowadays, can u? The only true love that I can tell is only God's love. ONLY ONE.

It's just an opinion, so to those who are now in love, no hard feeling, okay? :)

The title: Do not mistake Mr. Right Now for Mr. Right, is a very useful advice to everyone~ especially those young couples. If u did mistake on that, u might hurt a lot more than u ever expected. I'm not being a-selfish-love-haters, it's just a caring-loving-way to avoid anyone from getting hurts... {^.^}

Blank . . .

New here, suddenly feeling like want to be one of the blogger. Ahahaha. . actually, Ivy Chin was the one who pull me in this. Thanks to her! {^.^}