Her Diary.

She was devastated. She was alone this New Year Eve and she's always be. Thousands of people might be around her but she felt lonely. It was the same for her Christmas, or her birthday, or her big events. She at last accepted the fact that she was a loner. No matter how many people gathered around her, no matter how many parties he attended, they were just the same for her. She hated the fact that everyone is a good pretender. Putting their poker faces all time. She hated the fact that even her sisters acting like one.. Because she knew, the most hurtful thing she ever had was when her own sisters back-stabbed her. Why? Because her family is all she has got and when her own sisters tore her into pieces, she knew that she has no one left. Nobody but herself. Stood alone in the crossroads thinking of where to go, she prayed hard to God that He will not leave her alone..

She cried and cried, knowing there's nothing she could do. Her jar of heart was emptied without knowing the reason why or at least how it happened. She tried to stay away from those people, not because she hates them but because she's afraid. Afraid that they will leave her. Afraid that she will be alone not only mentally but also physically. She was not a good pretender. That was the reason why she left. She loves them so much that it killed her slowly day by day knowing that she has no one to lean on. No one.

Then, he lied her. The world seemed collapsed right at that moment. She wanted to share to at least someone, but does she have anyone else left to talk to? God, of course. And He answered her prayer with rain. Heavy rain that falls down every time she felt sad. It made December a rainy day because she couldn't stop herself from crying in her heart every single day.

She looked out the window pane, seeking for a rainbow after the heavy rain. But there was none. Her hope was gone.

She was hurt. She was bleeding. She said goodbye. A tear rolled down her pinkish cheek and she ...

*A story inspired by a little girl nicknamed Misz_Hell

Jar of Hearts

A song I fell in love with by just listening to it once.
It amazed me.
I cried the first time I listen to it.
Every word means everything.
Especially when she says, "who do u think u are?"
Christina Perri, such a wonderful singer. ^^

Here's the video:

And its beautiful lyric:

No, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel all right
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Me or Jessica Alba?

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebs

Stranger.

A fact that you might want to know about me:

I love the idea of talking to a stranger.

Ahahahaha

Does that idea sound strange to you?

Well, that doesn't mean I talk to everyone who passes by me. What I mean is, say I'm in a party, and I've got nothing to do (which is very rare) and you were just next to me with a I-don't-know-what-I'm-doing-here look. Sometimes I'll pass but most of the time, I'll just turn to you and say, "Hey, you seemed lost. Thank God you found me. I'm Map."

Ahahaha

Because talking to a stranger makes me feel free. I mean, you can talk about anything to him/her right? You can talk about the stupid-est thing you have ever done or confessed your greatest regret. You've got nothing to lose because the chance of the both of you to meet again is like 0.01%. Well, the world is undeniably small, but  that doesn't mean it is that small that you'll surely meet that stranger the very next day. That is why talking to a stranger is some kind of hobby to me. However, it is also depends on my mood whether I want to talk or prefer to keep quiet.

Some people doesn't like to talk to those who are a complete strangers to them. That is why maybe they find it hard to go to places they have never been before - alone - because they just can't communicate with others. They need someone whom they are very close to whenever they want to go around. Anyway, we can't blame them. They just feel insecure and need someone to make them feel secured. So, if you are this kind of people, don't hesitate to call me if you want to go anywhere to travel. I'd love to be your company!

^^

Wedding!

It's December and everyone is getting married!!

Ahahahaha

Does that mean I have to start thinking of getting married?? ^^

So, my aunt, Ruhana, had officially killed her freedom for a man called Jay Pee Evanez. Ehehe

By the way, I mean it in a good way. Congratz aunt!!

I was the bridesmaid that day. More to 'unofficial bridesmaid'. Ahahaha

There were awkward moments as I wasn't the one who should be there. I was just a replacement. But I tried. ^^

Here are some pics taken that day:

From ur left: Lydrievva Koh, Lydrizza Koh, Lydrianna Koh, Mr and Mrs Evanez, Lydriecca Koh, Lydrielyn Koh (me) and Lydrinnie Koh

Lydrielyn Koh @ Lala (Me)

Me again! ^^

Me and my ex-schoolmates!

I know you might be thinking, who are those girls that were with me in the first pic. They are my beloved sisters!! ^^

I'm comin' home, babeh!

I can't believe it's time!!!

I'm coming home TODAY.. oh yeahhhhh!!

I'm ready!

Going to eat and eat and eat and eat and eat!!!

Time for revenge!

Sandakan!! I'm coming!!

Ahahaha

The only thing I hate about going back is packing my stuff. Can't I just leave it in my room and walk out without having to think about anything?? It is such a waste of time. I mean it's your stuff, it's your room, so what the heck? Just because you are using my room for a week or so, I have to pack all my 3 semesters belongings?? That's like HOLY SHIT!

I'm sleepy and I am tired and I need some good rest before I go back. Too bad all my belongings had been locked inside my locker including my comforter, my pillows, my bolster... oh MY.
This is war..


I'm sitting here, facing my laptop, half-asleep, waiting for the bus to leave in another 3 hours. Shit. How I hate waiting. I'm dying!!!

Suicide.

Helpless?

Couldn't afford to live in this world anymore?

Tired of all these games of life?

Sick of those poker faces?

Thinking of suicide?

Answer these questions before you take a gun and shoot yourself.

1. Have you made your dad proud of you that he will say 'No father will have a better daughter/son' to everyone after you're gone?

2. Have you done something to a stranger that he/she ever said that 'if everyone is the same as you, then our world will be a better place'?

3. Have you made your spouse laugh and cry because he/she loves you?

4. Have you forgiven everyone who had wronged you?

5. Have you apologized to those you had wronged?

6. Have anyone said that 'I don't know what I'm gonna do if you're not here' to you?

7. Have you written a story of your own life?

8. Have you found someone that you really love and care about that there's nothing more you could ask in your life?

9. Will the world say, 'we've lost someone great today' on the day you were buried?

10. Are you ready to go to HELL?

If the answer is NO, then you don't DESERVE to die YET until my Father said so.

You get me??

So you better put your gun down and start living a healthy life. Life won't treat us good. That's why we have to make our best out of it.

Love yourself!

Photo Shoot!

Oh yeah!

I'm not gonna talk much today.

Let my pictures do the talking.. ^^

Venue:

Japanese Garden (Taman D.R Seenivasagam), Ipoh, Perak

Malaysia Railway Berhad (KTMB), Ipoh Perak

Credit to:

Pedot Elipsis

Jennifer Foong

Shamin Seether

CarolineDaungkil

Bernadette Hyacinth

Short.

Since I was a little girl, I had always wished that I was taller. Looking at my sisters - I hate to admit this but I am jealous of their height. Well, at least give me 160cm and above! Because of being so short, I have  to kill my dream of becoming a stewardess. I know my skin isn't that clean and clear but if I want to, I can take those chemical things to make my skin better right? But height? I can't do anything to make me taller!!! Sob Sob.....

And then today, looking at 'her', I suddenly wish I am shorter. So irony, don't you think? Ahahaha

yeah, I wish I AM shorter...

They said, be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it. Okay, now I am scared. Ahahaha

Performance.

Most of my performances  were not  recorded but thanks to those people who have recorded  and uploaded some of my performances at Konsert 1 Malysia, 1 Irama, 1 Dunia.

Sandarkan Pada Kenangan

Safwan feat Lala Koh ^^

Yang Sedang-Sedang Saja

Penyanyi: Safwan

Penari: Kumpulan Langkau Budaya

(I am in the group and you can only see me the last few seconds of the song on the stage wearing red punjabi. ^^)

I'm Comin' Home..

Oh yeahhhh!!

I'm comin' home,

Comin' home,

Tell the world that I'm comin' home...

Counting down the days feel like forever when it is only about 12 days more. Sigh.

Today, for the first time after months I talked to my mom. Never really got the time to have a nice small talk with my family. So a lot of stories came out. I miss home.

And for the first time in my life I got worried that I gained weight. Usually gaining  weight is a nice thing for me cause I used to be underweight since I was young that I had to take vitamins and so on. Today I told my mom I gained weight and I heard a shock in her voice. I was like 'Oh dear, even my mom is worried of my weight...'

All this while, I never have the time to talk to her about my weight (since I am closer to my dad and my dad usually say the chubbier, the prettier) ahahaha

Now I am thinking whether it is possible for me to lose weight (at least back to normal) before November 19th. Oh shit. It's not possible right? Right.

Food.

Damn it! Another 2 weeks to go before my beautiful legs touch my homeland. Ahahahaha

So, here is the list of food I need to have immediately after my arrival. Hoho

1. Japanese tofu (Ah Fui)

2. Tonsom bakas

3. Bak Kut Teh (Tanah Merah)

4. Loh Mai Kai

5. Siew Mai (BSB)

6. Ba Gua

7. Ikan Masin

8. Porridge (Mom)

9. Chicken Curry with Pineapple (Mom)

10. Dinner at Carol's. Anything will be great!

11. Telinga bakas masak kicap

12. Lidah bakas masak kicap

13. Monyet masak kari

14. Ular masak kicap/bak kut teh

15. Biawak/buaya masak kicap

16. Tupai masak kicap

17. Pudding (Carol)

18. Fruit salad (Sisters)

19. Sotong goreng (Ofy)

20. Cheese Bread (QQ Ice)

21. Cheese Cake (Jesselton)

22. Chocolate Ice Blended (The Boss)

23. Tau Fu Fa (Kim Fung)

24. Egg Tart (Beside Happy Mart)

25. Lap Chong

Couldn't think more. Thought of listing down all of these cause I'm freakin' hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Piercings.

I still remember how I used to be so obsessed with piercings back in 2009. I was so in love with piercings that having one or two piercings have never been enough. After my ears were both occupied with 10 earrings, I just couldn't get enough and wanted to do nose-piercing and blah, blah, blah.

Me: Dad, can I do nose-piercing?

(A killing-few-seconds-silence)

Me: Come on, just nose.

Dad: Lemme' ask you something, my daughter. (He usually calls me 'my daughter' when he doesn't want to break my heart) How many piercings do you have now?

Me: Emm... 10?

Dad: How many dad do you know who let his DAUGHTER to have that many piercings?

Me: Okay, okay. I got your point. But just this once. Please....?

Dad: No, means no.

Me: But..

Dad: Forget about it.

So I left that dream behind. Forcing myself to be under my dad's skin.

September 2011, suddenly I don't feel like putting on earrings anymore. The feeling gone as sudden as it once came. And now I don't think I can put on anymore earrings as it has been more than a month I left them 'untouched'. Sometimes I missed 'them' but I guess as we grow older, this kind of stuff just isn't interesting as it used to anymore. ^^

A Lie.

Here is the question for the night:

Is it easy to tell a lie?

Let me tell you one interesting fact.

Being able to tell a lie is a talent.

So that means, it is not easy AT ALL to lie for some people. Well, maybe you can try to lie but to lie means the person that you lied to has actually believed you. Okay, it's getting a little bit complicated here. Ahahaha let me give a situation so that you can actually figure out what I am trying to say. 

A is trying to tell a lie to B. And B knows that A is lying so is it considered a lie? Not anymore. However if A tells B a lie and B actually buys it, then only it is considered as a lie because A has lied and make B believes the lie he was told.

That is why it isn't easy. To tell a lie, you need the talent. It might come naturally, or maybe you can just expand what you have got. I'm not teaching you how to lie, please take note, I'm just sharing my thoughts.

Anyway I wish I am good in lying to make sure those who lied to me will get all those lies back to their faces.

A living hell.

Is there by any chance that everyone in this world that we are living in - or shall I say a living hell - will be happy? Remember to stress out the word EVERYONE. Well, if you ask me, I'd say NO.

Why?

Because of the world's own people. The matter-of-fact is nobody wants equality. Everybody keeps telling that all they want is equality. Gender equality. Work equality. Social equality. The fact is, they were all liars! Nobody cares about equality. All they want is to WIN. And to win, someone has to lose. That's the fact. It is never a situation where someone wins and the other wins as well. It is always win and lose. Either you win, or you lose. That's it. Win-win situation? Uh-oh. Never. Use your brain to think.

So this living hell will allow weak people (a.k.a. losers) to start looking for a plan to see the one who won falls down. The battle then began. That's life isn't it? Maybe you can play it nice, saying that "Oh, I'm not gonna do bad things and hurt someone else", or "I'm not the bad guy", "bad isn't the right word for me" but frankly speaking, you'll reach your limit sooner or later. You'll start thinking "why am I always at the bottom line?", "what is so special about others that they can go up and not me?" and then you will  end up finding yourself in the battle, trying hard to win. Be careful, you might use a lot of ways, which you never think of, just to see others fall.

Basically, there is NO WAY for everyone to be happy. That is just a fact that realistic people will accept. I'll not force you to believe in it. I'm just sharing my thoughts. If you still want to stand firm with your principle telling that there are ways to make everyone happy, well go on. I want to know how too. ^^

I'm Back!!

Wow! I've been far and away from my blog for a while now. I thought my busy life was over. And that I can relax, update my blog every single second. It turned out to be totally different than what I'd expected. ^^

Okay so for the last few weeks I was busy with some performances (again!) and few events outside college. Too bad (again..), I don't have camera so I couldn't take any of those beautiful moments in pictures. Only records that can play in my 256MB memory. =.="

Anyway, for a concert organized by my seniors themed '1Malaysia, 1Irama, 1Dunia', some photographers took pictures of mine and so here they are!

Before my first dance performance - Chinese dance

Before my second performance - duet with senior Safwan

Song - Sandarkan Pada Kenangan

A picture taken while I was dancing - 3rd performance

Red carpet bebeh!!

Me and Yuan Yuan

Me and Mr Eyie

We are family!! Ahahahaha

The concert was a success I would say (even though I wasn't that confident at first that it will) and I had fun! Real fun!

^^

It was my first time to perform about four times in one night which requires me to change my clothes in every single performance. Usually I would just have to go up to the stage and sing - wearing the same clothes everytime. But this time, I changed for four times according to the songs I have to dance. It was an amazing experience.


By the way, I'm already in the 'holiday mood' now. Ahahahaha Can't wait to go back to where I belong. Where my heart belongs. Everyday I keep planning about what am I going to do once I go back, what am I gonna eat, where will be my next visit, oh Dear!


I'm comin' home, comin' home,
tell the world that I'm comin home!

Trip to Cameron Highlands.

Last week, on the 16th of September 2011, me and another eight friends of mine went to Cameron Highlands just to have fun. It was a great experience and I had great fun with them. ^^

It was raining that time so the temperature dropped really fast. I was sweating in the afternoon but then as it went dark, the rain came and there you are; a stiff coldness on the air. Hoho

Not that cold though. I was wearing a sleeveless dress, knee level, and yet I still can stand firm. Ahahaha except for some of the times when the wind suddenly blow really strong wind with cold air. Fuiyoh!

From left: Dette, Jeremy, Me and Walker

Lydrielyn Koh ^^

Me and my bestie ate a lot of strawberries. Strawberry steamboat, strawberry ice cream, strawberry choc, fresh strawberry and so on until I felt like throwing up. Ahahaha  yet, they tasted amazing!!!

We also met the drummer of Estranged band; Andy. I didn't recognized him as I don't really know about this band but when he passed by, I signaled my friend to look at him and said, "look at that fellow! So handsome!" Then my friend turned and looked at him. She was speechless. Then she turned to me and said, "don't you know him?? He is Andy!! Estranged's drummer!!" Ahahahaha

Really wished I can go to Cameron Highlands with my family. It must be a lot of fun too. :)

Chinese Moon Festival.

For the first time in my life, I celebrated Chinese Moon Festival. Some call it Mooncake Festival, some call it Lantern Festival, some call it Mid-Autumn Festival, but whatever you call it, as long as you understand which festival am I referring to then it should be fine. Ahahaha

So, I am a Chinese but an ABC Chinese (means has already mix with other races. Not pure Chinese. ^^).  My family still celebrate Chinese New Year. It's a must. But I don't remember celebrating any Chinese Moon Festival. I've no idea why. I don't even remember holding a lantern. Well, mooncakes, of course I've eaten before. It's a must to buy it  every year. But lantern, I've always seen it from afar. Sometimes I really feel like holding it but I don't have the chance to. At last, I managed to play with it this year and to be specific; today. I had a lot of fun!!! Thanks  to Lee Kaw Siang who invited me to join them to celebrate this festival. If not because of him, I'm sure I won't know what I'd miss. Thanks Kaw Siang!! ^^

We went around with the lanterns and sing and dance and laugh. It was a great experience. I even ate mooncake today. Eugene Lee gave me and it tasted so good! Thanks Zhe Rui. :)

Another amazing thing that happened to me today is that I got a Cheongsam from my lecturer!! Thanks Madam Jennifer! You don't know what it means to me. I mean, getting something from your beloved and respected lecturer is like WOW and plus I've been wishing to have a Cheongsam all this while so it was like a dream come true right? Extremely happy!!!!!

In conclusion, God has been good to me lately. I guess I know why. ^^

Thanks, Father! ^^

Forgiveness.

I believe yesterday all the churches around the world talked about forgiveness. Why? Because of the 9/11 tragedy. My condolences to the families who'd lost their family members in that tragedy. May their souls rest in peace. Amen.

Talking about forgiveness, I remembered an anime I used to watch when I was in lower secondary school, Jigoku Shoujo. I still watch it now and then. To those who watch this anime, you know this story very well. It's about revenge. I repeat: REVENGE.

I used to think how good it was if it was real. I can take revenge to all the people who'd hurt me, physically, mentally, and even emotionally. I wanted to send them to hell so that they won't even have the chance to hurt me anymore. But now I realized, I was wrong. Totally wrong. Seriously, will you feel relieved knowing that you had took your revenge? Knowing that the person you hate is suffering? Well, I don't. And I believe you don't feel good too. What's the point of taking revenge? Do you get anything good from it? Obviously, no.

Someone once told me, what's broken is broken. Never try to put  back the pieces together or buy a new one to replace it. Instead, move on. When someone breaks your heart and you try to cover it up; pretending everything is going to be alright or find someone who you think can make everything alright again, it makes  everything harder, trust me. You just need time to heal. Move on before you clear things up. People say that they can forgive but not forget. Here is the fact; if you really forgive that someone, you will move on. It means, you will let go. And once you really let go, then it's time to FORGET. It is hard, believe me. I know. But all you need is time.

There's time to forgive, time to be angry, time to calm down, time to stand up and fight, time to cry, time to laugh, time for everything. All you need to know is when. When is the right time to do the right thing.

My last word is, these things, which I wrote here do not mean any harm to any of you who reads. I don't mean to hurt anyone's feeling. I just want to share my real thoughts with hope that anyone who reads this will understand what I am trying to say and think about it. Not only think but also act accordingly. Being a human being is not easy. That's why we are called complex creature. God loves you. I love you. That's why we want you to lead a happy life. :)

P/S: I want to apologize to each and everyone of you whom I had hurt conscious or unconsciously. I never meant to hurt you. But if I did, I'm really sorry. Please forgive me. And to those who thought they had hurt my feeling, and you want to apologize to me but you don't have the guts to, don't worry. Your apology is accepted.

Sincerely with lots of love,

Lydrielyn Koh

a.k.a.

Lala Koh

Safe Haven.

Another novel by my sweetheart, Nicholas Sparks. ^^

I bought this novel last week at book fair in KL. This novel is the latest by Nicholas parks. Most of his novels made me cry but not this one. I'm not saying that this one is not as amazing as the others but this novel is different. It is just different.

It is full of mystery. All the while I was reading the novel, I can sense myself kept on asking what, why, who, how, and so on. I kept on turning the page as I wanted to know more. The other novels made me read slower because I was mesmerized with every story he brought me in but this novel made me read faster as I wanted to know more and more.

The ending is power. I had goosebumps while reading the last few chapter. That shows how great his novel is.

Here is a bit about Safe Haven:

When a mysterious young woman named Katie appears in the small North Carolina town on Southport, her sudden arrival raises questions about her past. Beautiful yet self-effacing, Katie seems determined to avoid forming personal ties until a series of events draws her into two reluctant relationships: one with Alex, a widowed store owner with two young children; and another with her plainspoken neighbor, Jo. Despite her reservations, Katie slowly begins to let down her guard, putting down roots in the community and becoming increasingly attached to Alex and his family.

But even as Katie begins to fall in love, she struggles  with the dark secret that still hunts and terrifies her. A past that set her on a fearful journey across the country, to the oasis of Southport. With Jo's support, katie eventually realizes that she must choose between a life of transient safety and one of riskier rewards and that in the darkest hour, love is the only true safe haven.

Work as if you don't need the money.

You can only become truly accomplished at something you love.
Don't make money your goal.
Instead pursue the things you love doing and then do them so well that people
can't take their eyes off of you.

-Maya Angelou

I'm a workaholic.

People used to tell me that but I keep on telling myself that I am not.

Until few days ago then I realized that it was true.

I am.

Once I start working, it's hard to stop.

The other day, I worked for more than 16 hours.

Non-stop.

And the work I'm doing is not the one that just have to sit down and face your laptop.

I need to stand up for that long hours and lift heavy things, go here and there, still have to always put a smile on my face, all sort of things.

I keep on working that a friend of mine couldn't stand it anymore and force me to stop. I refused at first but then after hearing he nagged for few minutes, I stopped.

After that long hours, I worked with my laptop for another few hours. Fuh!

I don't know why but I have fun doing works. I enjoyed it.

At fist I thought I work because I need money. But then I just realized that I work because I just love working. It gives me satisfaction. I made money my goal but eventually it changed as I start working. The goal will then be to keep people satisfied, to keep people happy, to let them have fun and also for my own sake - to make myself happy.

^^

Minesweeper

Do you know this game?

My friends told me that it was a lame game.

It wasn't interesting. AT ALL.

But for me, it was a game full of mystery.

Just like our life.

You never know what your next step may bring you.

You never know what happen if you do it.

This game has been cruel to me since I was in Standard 3. I've been addicted to this game since then. Can't stop playing it once I start.

Then I stop the addiction when I enter Form 1 because of my new environmen. I didn't play that 'lame' game already. I played  a lot of new games. Little did I know that THAT game returned to me this sem. Ahahaha

I start playing it again since I'm now using my netbook and I couldn't install much game with it's low speed. So I played it again. And here I am stuck with the game.

I just couldn't understand why I can't find all the 99 bombs!!

Today I was so close to find them all. So close!!!!!!!

One wrong mistake and BOOOMMMMMM!

Exploded.

I found all the 98. 1 bomb left. I just had to make a choice, whether to open the upper box or the other box. I clicked the other and all my hardwork ended right there at that moment....

I was dissapointed.

Clueless.

Speechless.

But, it's okay. I'll try harder and get it done! ^^

Amazing!

I felt amazing!

Why?

Only God knows. ^^

It's been a while since I uploaded a picture of mine.

Well, I haven't change much.

My hair is still of the same length. Sigh.

Feels like want to cut it short back again but then I really wanna have a long hair.

It's been like forever I had kept my hair short.

Today, again I read the novel 'A Walk To Remember' by my sweetheart, Nicholas Sparks. It just amazed me so I can't help it but to read the whole story over and over again. Trust me, you won't regret reading it.

This is the novel cover.

Me with A Walk To Remember ^^

Don't judge me, judge the book. Ahahaha

The story is about high school sweetheart. Also about the bonds between the family and frinedship. I really wanna tell you the story but it will be much better if you read it yourself. Before I read the novel, Nicholas warned me that if I proceed in reading the novel, I will cry. And I did. So now I'm warning you; you will cry after reading the novel. Don't believe me? Well, read it. :)

Funny.

People keep on asking me,

"Lala, what happened to your blog? I can't enter it anymore. You deleted it?"

Ahahaha

Just because I changed the domain of my blog, all the posts I posted are not available anymore through the link last time I used which is http://lalakoh.blogspot.com

I wanted to change back my domain to how it is before but I don't think it is needed. Maybe it's just time for me to disappear slowly....

Hohoho

A Walk To Remember

This is another book from my favorite  author - Nicholas Sparks. He wrote this book in 1999 or around 2001, I'm not sure but it had been a major motion picture in 2002.

This novel - A Walk To Remember - has been with me since I don't even remember when. But I just don't have the time to read it. Today, I just don't know what to do as I woke up early, I took the book and started reading it. The last few chapters made me cried, frankly speaking. Not just tears rolling down my cheek but I cried like really loud. The story really touched my heart. It wasn't a surprise because all the books I've read by Nicholas Sparks had really made me cry. T.T

Now I'm waiting for another book which I asked a friend of mine to buy at KL's book fair the other day, Safe Haven. Couldn't wait to see what Nicholas Sparks have for me next! ^^

P/S: Seriously, you gotta collect all of his books!!

Holiday?

While everyone was busy having their own sweet  time, having fun and hanging out with their friends while eating 'kuih raya', I was busy doing tons of work and attending seminars. Well, I wouldn't say that it's such a waste. I collected a lot of experiences in just a week.

Last weekend, I went for a trainee teachers' camp. It was awesome. Do you know how long have I dreamt of owning a presenter? I got it for free there. I was extremely excited and super happy with it. FREE, man! I saved my money for that and I got that for free. Amazing!! Ahahaha

I even met new friends there Not only from other institutes but as well  as my own institute. I never know that I don't socialize much in my institute. Sad, don't you think? :(

I also met new friends in McDonald. Don't ask me how. Ahahaha And also met AC Mizal and Wahid (Senario). WOW!!!!!!!!!

Why on Earth don't I own a camera???? Haiz..... camera is going to be the next in my wish list. Since I don't have to use the money to buy a presenter anymore, so I can use it and of course top up a bit to get a camera. My sister asked me to ask from my dad but hey, I am a big girl now. And you expect me to ask from him? Embarrassing-lah...... Plus it feels good to use a thing which you buy it yourself. Right??? ^^

I feel like telling you about all my experiences but I just can't. Words alone can't describe the  whole lot of story. (Well, if you know me you would know how I tell a story -- with actions and all sort of hand gestures. Ahahaha)

Btw, I miss my family.... T.T

July 18th, 2005

Dear MGEAMM,

It has been 6 years since you left.

6 years, 1 month, 4 days - to be exact.

Life has been cruel to me since then. It could've never been better.

Just so you know I tried.

This year is  the first time I've forgotten about the day you left me.

Does that mean I'm forgetting you?

Well, I wouldn't say so.

You are still a part of me.

You are still in my heart.

I can still feel your presence.

Sometimes I wonder, how will it feels if you are still here, with me?

Will things still be the same? Or totally different?

If I were given a chance, I really wanna turn back time.

There are thousands of things I didn't tell you.

Hadn't tell you.

I bet you are thinking the same too.

Life is hard.

The harder I cry, the harder it gets.

MGEAMM,

I'm tired of all these.

Tell Him to bring me to you.

p/s: I love you.

Lots of Love,

Lydrielyn Koh

My name is Lydrielyn Koh

The one and only - Lydrielyn Koh ^^

This post is dedicated to those who are confused with who am I.

I remembered the other day a lecturer asked a friend of mine, "is her (me) real name Lala? That sounds ugliey......"

Ahahahaha

And then another time my lecturer asked me, "What's your real name, Lala? I tried to find your name in  the name list but couldn't find any name starting with Lala."

Attention everyone!!

My name is Lydrielyn Koh.

If lets say we met, and I say "Hi, my name is Lydrielyn Koh."

Will you seriously remember my name? The answer is obviously NO!

That is the reason why I ask you to call me Lala.

Simpler, don't you think?

Plus, I was called by that name since I was a kid so I'm used to it already.

I changed my URL to http://lydrielynkoh.blogspot.com to make sure that everyone will know my real name and spell it correctly(also pronounce it correctly).

I'm proud to be Lydrielyn Koh!!

^^

P/S: Special thanks to my parents for giving me such a unique name. I believe it is the one and only name you can find on Earth. ^^

Assignment.

People keep on asking me:

Lala, have you finished your assignment? You look so free.

Don't you have any assignment to do? You look so relaxed.

Dear friends,

a smile painted on my face doesn't mean I am happy,

a small talk with my colleague doesn't mean I am free,

a plate full of rice doesn't mean I have money,

a full blast energy in the afternoon doesn't mean I'm not weary,

because the way we handle things are vary,

to understand me, you need to look into me very clearly.

 (Lydrielyn, 2011)

I just don't know why people need to ask me whether I have assignments or not. I am a student, it's impossible to not have an assignment. In fact, I'm the one who should be asking you, why are you so tensed up with your assignments? Aren't they the same with the rest of tasks that your lecturer need you to do? So why when it comes to assignments, you were so stressed? Of course I am also stressed out but I just didn't show it to you. I thought a smile can make the world a better place to live.

Okay, I'm not gonna say anything anymore -- regarding to assignments -- because the way we handle things might be different.

Anyway, when everybody were busy doing their assignments, I was busy having practices, events, all sort of things. Well, to get extra money, you gotta work harder, right? I don't remember the things I did much but this one I'll remember -- "Malam Berbuka Puasa Bersama Chef Ismail" -- !!

It was amazing! All these while, I was only able to see him on TV, but this time I got the chance to sing duet with him. And when he was doing the cooking demonstration, I was able to stand just next to him (holding the mic for him but who cares) ahahaha. It was a fantastic experience.

Again, too bad I don't own a camera. Didn't get to snap a photo with  him. Hope there will be a next time.

P/s: How I wish that I can graduate with only my life experiences because if I need to show them flying colors in exam paper, oh my. I'm not good in answering written questions. Let me rephrase it; academic written question. Exam is coming and I guess it will be the end of the world for me... T.T