Awesome!

I never thought the day would come. I never thought I will be crowned. I feel awesome!!!!!!!! ^^

Miss Awesome 2012 - Lydrielyn Koh
*Look at that - Miss Universe 2012.... fuh! ^^

Time.

A good story I just need to share:

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It was a beautiful morning. A good day for a walk. A good day to talk. A good day for a great breakfast. In fact, it was almost a perfect morning. That was what she thought. Or maybe what she hoped. Or maybe what she wanted. Then, that was when everything went wrong. He started digging her past. Asking her about the past. The past which she tried hard to forget. The past which she wanted to run away from. The past which tore her heart apart.

"Who is he?" he asked with a heavy tone. A restless tone.

"It's him, my ex," she answered. Not wanting to keep secret. "I told you about him. Why'd you ask?"

"I saw your pictures last night. With him," he stopped.

"And?" she tried to figure what he's trying to say.

"And you looked happy in the picture," he added.

His sentence rendered her speechless. The memories of him started to play like a video-tape in her mind without her realizing. She then remembered how happy she was with him. How the world felt like when she was with him. How life was when she was with him. And a tear almost rolled out of her eyes when he started asking again, "do you miss him?"

She knew the answer right away. But she refused to answer. She didn't want to answer.

"Why did the two of you broke up?" he asked again. This time, she knew he wanted answer.

She gained all the strength she had and started spitting out the truth.

"It was my fault. If there is someone to blame, it should be me," she paused and then continued with a heavy tone, "I couldn't stand it anymore. I feel lonely. I feel ignored. But it was never his fault. He was trying hard for our future. I knew that. But if that is how we're going to live now and for the next 10 or 15 or 20 years more, I don't think I can stand it. Better end it now than later, right?" She tried not to cry.

He kept quiet, trying to digest what he just heard.

But her, she started recalling those time when they were still together. All the questions he asked bring her to the times, those happy ones, when she was with him. She then started to ask herself, 'was it a mistake?', 'should I make it up?', and the list went on. She was lost in her own world, didn't know what to do.

He shouldn't have asked. He shouldn't have reminded her of those days. He shouldn't have brought back those memories. He shouldn't have. No, he shouldn't. 

But back in her apartment, she knew she needed to be strong. 'It is just a phase in forgetting someone,' she tried to convince herself. She didn't want any doubt no more. She wanted to forget the past, and live in her new world. She told herself, being single won't harm her in any way. Love? It was just a fairy tale. Well, at least for her.

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A story taken from a book titled "Single or Couple?".

Nice story. ^^

My New Fave Song!

I fell in love to this song the first time I listened to it.

And the song is...........

Pag-Ibig by Yeng Constantino!!

She is a Filipino, ehem-ehem!

Ehehe

Sino pa, kung hindi ang family ko!!

Here's the video:

And here's the lyric:

Ang pag-ibig, hindi parang cellphone

'pag naluma, papalitan

Ang pag-big, hindi parang damit

'pag may bagong uso, papalitan

Kung sabihin kong mahal kita

Yan ay totoo sinta

Wag na wag kang magdududa

Hindi kita binobola

Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta

Kahit na ika'y pumangit, hindi kita ipagpapalit

Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo o sinta

Kahit na ika'y makalbo, hindi ako magbabago

Ah ha huh.. 4x

Ang pag-ibig, hindi parang pagkain

'pag pinagsawaan, pamimigay nalang

Ang pag-ibig, hindi parang pusa

pag maingay, ililigaw nalang

Kung sabihin kong mahal kita

Yan ay totoo sinta

Wag na wag kang magdududa

Hindi kita binobola

Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta

Kahit na ika'y tumaba, hindi ako mangangaliwa

Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta

Kahit na magka-wrinkles ka, iki-kiss pa rin kita.

Ah ha huh.. 4x

Love is patient,

love is kind,

it does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud,

it is not rude
It is a not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight of evil,

but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes and
always perseveres.


Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta
Kahit na topakin ka, iintindihin kita
Panghabang buhay ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo, o sinta
Kahit na may kasalanan ka, iiyak ako pero papatawarin kita

Translation (which I made myself):

*only to make you understand the song (for non-Tagalog speaker)

Love is not like handphone,

After a while, you replace with a new one.

Love is not like clothes,

When there is a new trend, you change accordingly.

When I say I love you,

I really do mean it.

Please don't ever doubt,

I am not playing on you.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you are ugly, I will not replace you.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you are bald, I will still not change.

Love is not like food,

When you had enough, you give it to someone else.

Love is not like cats,

Making noise, (sorry, I'm not sure what does ililigaw mean)

When I say I love you,

I really do mean it.

Please don't ever doubt,

I am not playing on you.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you've became fat, I will not leave.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you have wrinkles, I will still kiss you.

Love is patient,

love is kind,

it does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud,

it is not rude
It is a not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight of evil,

but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes and

always perseveres.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you have mood swing, I will understand you.

I love you with all my life, oh my love,

Even if you did wrong, I may cry but I will still forgive you.

*Since I haven't practiced my Tagalog for few years already, I've forgotten some of the words so there might be some mistakes in the translation version but I guess the overall is okay. Do correct me! ^^

Relax.

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After three semesters which are equivalent to one-and-a-half years, I just realized that I don't belong here. Yeah, here. Exactly, here! Ahahahaha

Man, 18 months.. Phew!

Nothing much I can do to quit, except if I.......

That's it! You've read my mind. Ahahahaha

Looking forward for next semester.

"Lala, you need to re-sit."

"I do?" (Pretend as if I AM surprised)

"Yeah.."

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"Lala, I'm sorry to say but you failed for your re-sit paper.."

"Wow, at last!"

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This draft was written by me last year, few months ago, few days before exam started, but I never post it. I guess I was being a coward to tell everyone how I hate it being here. Ahahaha but guess what, here I am still studying. What a life! ^^

I guess this is my call, this is what God wants me to do; to be a teacher, to be a good teacher, to be a good Christian teacher. But I'm afraid I can't do it. This is big, you know. People don't just go in front and start teaching. They need to have the qualities. The qualities to be  a good teacher. And do I have it? I don't know. But one thing for sure, teaching is something scary for me. What if I teach the wrong thing? What if my students spotted my mistake? What if they grew up believing things of which I taught but weren't right? What if I created a monster? What if....

Okay, Lala, you are freaking out.. Relax.. Meditate...

Seriously? Me? A teacher? Oh, God, show me the way....

The matchless image.

Most people think that wearing designer clothes will do wonders for their image. What they don't realize is that they have already been designed after a matchless image. Do you know that we are made from the image of God? Take note: I'm speaking as a Christian here.

But that is not the point.

Frankly speaking, I am still seriously upset and disappointed with the situation I wrote earlier. I mean, since the people in your life are made in the image of God, how should you behave towards them? Of course you should treat them equally, nicely, kindly, respectfully, with all those nice qualities. To insult them means to insult God, right?

It's funny how you can treat your pets nicely but not your neighbor. How you can feed your cat with exquisite food but not the poor. How you can provide a nice and comfortable place for your dog to rest but not those in needs. How you can converse humbly to your hamster but not to the people around you. Irony, don't you think?

Let us take a moment of silent and think critically, have we ever treated others so bad that make us feel bad right now? Don't worry, nobody is perfect. Pray, and that will heal everything. And this doesn't apply to Christians only, it applies to everyone. Happy day ahead, everyone.. ^^

P/s: This idea came from a book titled Bible Bytes. A really nice book which guide the youths in Bible Reading. :)